Never-Chris sturniolo

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"Chris"  "hm" "how do you live your life?" "I guess through youtube,family,and friends" "that's not what I mean, I guess like are you living the life you really wanted? Or do you not care that you aren't? Because now that I'm thinking about it.. what If we didn't hate each other? And we where best of friends? Or if me and Matt hated each other" "Oh, I know I wanted YouTube, But I didn't want all these weird people or toxic fans, and I wouldn't change the fact that we argue at all, and I definitely need my friends, even you" I could feel myself smiling at his comment, "you like arguing with me?" "Keeps me on my toes, and we can be friends if we really tried" "yea?" "Mhm" "Maybe we can try" "yea, what about you though?" "I'm definitely not living my life as I thought it would be, but I wouldn't change it for the world, I know that life is absolutely shit right now but if I really think about it, there's things keeping me on my toes,plus I'm ready for whatever comes at me" "that's a good way to look at it, your smart Bella" "I know" I smiled and pulled in the drive way. Did I just have a deep conversation with the person I "hate"?.
A few hours later my brother dropped off cloths, I changed into one of the sweatpants he bought me and plopped on the couch, bored because Nick was showering,Matt was sleeping, and Chris was just in his room. I decided to message Cayden and see what he's up too,

                         𝗖𝗮𝘆🤓🥸

𝗜𝘀𝗮𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗮.
Heyyy
𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑

I thought he would reply but he just left me on read, witch was confusing because I though we where good. I decided to let it go because maybe he just needed time. I scrolled on TikTok for a bit until Chris came out, "hey weirdo" I turned to see him with a little smile, "hey duface" "wanna watch a movie if I get Matt and nick?" "Yea sure I'll pick while you get them" "alright". As he walked away I grabbed the remote and turned the tv on, scrolling through movies. I decided to pick "bad boys" and put down the remote. Chris and the rest ended up walking back soon, I wondered what took them long but I didn't want to jump in there business. Nick sat on the side of me, Chris sitting on the other, My mind randomly traveled to the fact maybe I should tell Chris how I feel, but at the same time I know I should take it slowly.
        It was late now,I sat on Chris's bed ready for what he wanted to tell me. Let's rewind on how this happen, when we got back from recording a YouTube video, he asked for me to follow him because he wanted to talk to me,and now here I am. "Okay so.. Cayden messaged nick earlier, I have the screen shot but I think it's right for you to read it I guess" "oh ok" I said with a slight smile, thinking it was something nice.

𝗟𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗻 𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗸, 𝗶𝗱 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘆 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗿𝗶𝗽𝗹𝗲𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗔𝗹𝗮𝗵𝗻𝗮,𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗜𝘁𝘀 𝗲𝗶𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗺𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗜𝘀𝗮𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗮 𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗲,𝗼𝗿 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲, 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗴𝗶𝗿𝗹 𝗜 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗲𝗱 𝗺𝗲,𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗵𝗿𝗶𝘀 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿,𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗰𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗱𝗼𝗻𝘁 𝗯𝗲𝗰𝗮𝘂𝘀𝗲 𝘄𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗶𝘁.

I paused. "I never played him.." "look what nick sent back"

𝗖𝗮𝘆𝗱𝗲𝗻 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘀𝗮𝗶𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘄𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴,𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗰𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗮 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘆𝗼𝘂,𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗹𝘆 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗙𝗜𝗡𝗘. 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗲𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂, 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗲𝗿 𝘂𝗻𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗳𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗲𝗱 𝗶𝘁 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂, 𝗔𝗹𝘀𝗼 𝗶𝘁 𝗱𝗼𝗲𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗠𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘄𝗵𝗼 𝘀𝗵𝗲 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲𝘀.

I was grateful that he stood up for me.. but hurt because I lost my best friend just because I didn't like him. "Why would he say that.. I told him I'd still love being best friends" "he clearly doesn't deserve you I guess" I sighed "you guess?" "To me personally, I think you deserve a lot more then you get, I'm sorry he's doing this, maybe you guys should talk" "yea I'll ask Matt if he can drive me by tomorrow" "that's good" "mhm" I stood up to walk out but Chris mumbled something "hmm?" "I was wondering if you'd just like to hangout" "yea sure" I sat back down and we just started talking about random things. "You know Chris" "yea?" I thought for a little, maybe I shouldn't tell him after all. "Never mind I forgot.." "oh.. alright I guess"