Red between Us

capítulo 48

Dear readers, this is a warning.

Better experience...read it loudly.

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I think she was afraid to love sometimes I think it terrified her. She was the type to fall in love with the darkness. She fell in love with empty hearts. That's why she struggled with love..she couldn't touch it, she couldn't feel it. She couldn't hold on to it and make sure it will never change.
She was always the type to get attached easily no matter how much she tries, It will always get the best of her. That's the bad thing about love. Love is a feeling that leads to getting attached most of the time.

And she was attached to her no matter what she does fear is getting the best of her, the fear of losing her other half.

She loved the way she was with her, she loved her soul most of all. She loved the fact that she will never be alone as long as she is by her side. She loved her obsession with books, the way she makes her laugh, the way she was here for her no matter what. She loved the version she saw of herself with her. She can't imagine living without her.

No one knew the battle she fought inside of her every single day trying to hide that secret.

But no matter how hard it got she kept her smile and laugh and shined her light for anyone who needed it.

Even though she knew she was the one who needed it the most.

She tried her best to put smiles on our faces when she needed it the most.

The girl that used to wake up every morning to make smoothies for me, because I didn't want to eat.

The girl that loved me with her entire heart and showed me how a real friendship is.

I will never love someone the way I loved her.

The saddest kind of sad is when your tears can't explain the pain you are in, no words will fix you, and you feel nothing you go completely numb. It's like the world has ended. You are just there for a second. You heart is still working but for you it stopped.

She left my life but she will always be in my heart.

I will miss you forever.

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Till next time,

Love, Lynn<33