Last Steps

7. Trying to Fly

"Are you alright?" a woman kneels down in front of me. She has red hair tied up in a ponytail. "I'm okay" I nod. "Is there any one that I can call?" she rests a hand on my shoulder. I'm not sure if its for balance or if she's trying to comfort me. "No thank you" I get up and go to the car. I get in and go home. I chuck the keys on the bench and go to my room. He left me. He actually left me. I open the laptop and Skype Casey. "Heeeey" she answers. "What's wrong?" she realises that I'm crying. "He left me" I smile and wipe my eyes. "Jamie" Casey frowns. "Why would he do that? James loves you." "He accidentally called me and I overheard Katie telling him about how she was born and her father and everything. He got really pissed" I sob. "You must be heart broken" she droops her shoulders. "No, I'm fine. It's not like I loved him anyways" I try to say sarcastically. "I'm sure that he will come around. You guys have hit so many bumps on your journey and your still on the road. He'll come back" Casey smiles. "He just swerved of the road. I don't think that he's coming back" I say. "I didn't even wish him a happy birthday!" I gasp as I realise. "CASEY! GET HERE NOW!" I hear Casey's mum scream. Casey looks scared. "Looks like mum discovered the broken tap. I better go" she forces a smile. "Have fun" I say before I end the call. I close the window and look at my background. James is smiling while he has his arm around my waist while I am doubled over, laughing. A sob escapes my mouth and I quickly shut the screen. I get up and look at the photo on my bedside table. I grab it and piff it at the wall. It smashes into pieces. I stand on my bed and start ripping down all the photos of James. I scream and I rip down another photo. My parents run in. Dad pulls me away and embraces me. I sob into his shirt. Mum cuddles me from the back. I ball my eyes out for about 5 minutes. I pull back. "I'm sorry" I wipe my eyes. "What happened?" Mum asks. "James" Dad picks up a ripped phot of me and James at the zoo off the floor. "Oh, honey" she cuddles me again. "It was my fault" I say. "I'm sure it wasn't. Some relationships just don't work out" Dad smiles. "I know" I pull away from mum and stand up. "I need some air" I bite my lip and leave. I cross my arms over my chest as I walk down the street. I end up reaching a highway. I look around and see a bridge that is above the road. I go towards it and climb the stairs. I get to the top and look down at all the cars. I could just jump and get hit by a car or break my neck. Whatever happens first. I climb over the fence and step onto the ledge, my hands tightly gripping the railing. I could just end it all now. I wouldn't have to wait for 2-3 months. I could just....... "Jamison don't do it" I hear someone say. I look behind me and see James slowly walking towards me. I quickly look away again. "Why would you care. You don't love me anymore" my voice wavers a bit. "You think I don't love you? It broke my heart to do what I did to you before. I could not stop thinking about the pain that I caused the both of us" he says."The both of us!? You have no idea how much pain you caused me!" I yell. "How did you know that i was here?" I continue to stare at the road and the cars, speeding down it. "I got a call from one of my friends. He recognised you" I feel him place a hand on my arm. "Don't!" I yell and he steps back. "Don't touch me" I snap. "Please don't do this. I am really sorry" I look at him and see that his eyes are watering. "I'm gonna die anyway" I smile and let go of the railing. "No!" James yells and runs towards the railing. He puts his hand out. I don't even try to grab it. I keep falling. Its almost as if I'm flying. I close my eyes and wait for the impact. All of a sudden I land onto something. I open my eyes and look around. I have landed on something that is white, and fluffy. After a minute I realise that I am on a mattress. "Grab my hand" I look up and see an old man with a mattress factory t-shirt on. His arm is extended. I reach up and grab it. He seems strong for an old guy. Once he gets me out, he helps me onto the road. I look around. Still shocked that I didn't die. "But.....How?" I ask him. "I saw you up there. I was delivering these mattresses and I stopped so you would have a soft landing" he smiles and tilts his cap. "I've gotta go" he smiles, gets into his truck and leaves. A car honks at me and I realise that I am still on the road. I quickly run to the side. "Jamison!" I look and see James running towards me. He picks me up and holds me tightly. I wrap my arms around him as well. He puts me down and looks me in the eye. "You really scared me there" he frowns. "I had nothing to love for. The one I love most, didn't love me anymore" I touch his cheek. "Well I know that the one that you love, loves you more then you love him" he leans down and kisses me. "We should get off the highway" I whisper against his lips. He smiles "Okay."

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"You really took that seriously. Didn't you?" James lightly presses his hand in my lower back as we walk into my room. There are photos all over the floor. The photo beside my bed is in pieces on the floor. "Yeah" I look around. "At least only a couple at ripped" he goes to the bed and starts picking them up. I go to his side and help him. "This took me 7 hours to make. It only took me 7 seconds to ruin it" I pick up two pieces if a creased photo of James and I. "At least you didn't smash your laptop" James tilts his head towards my desk. "I came close" I laugh. It takes us 5 minutes to clean up all the photos. We then spend an hour putting the ones that aren't ruined on the wall. "I'll replace the ruined ones" James sighs as we finish. "You don't have to" I go to my wardrobe and open the bottom drawer. I pull some pants out to reveal a plastic pocket, full of photos. "I got 2 copies of each photo" I take the pocket out and put my pants back in. We spend another 20 minutes replacing all the ruined ones. After we finish, I quickly go up to James and brush my lips across his. "What was that for?" he smirks. "That was a...Happy birthday. I forgot. Can't stay. Gotta run from my killer, kiss" I smile and start to back away to the door. Before I can open it he grabs me by the wrists and has me locked in his arms. "Not quite fast enough" he leans down and kisses me. All of a sudden i feel really sick. I pull back. James' face instantly turns to shock. "What's wrong?" he sounds alarmed. "Nothing" I kiss him and the pain comes back. My hands fly to my stomach. I look at James. "James" I whisper then I collapse to the floor. He is instantly by my side. "Whoa" he places his hands on my shoulders. "Lets just watch a movie or something. Yeah?" he asks. "Okay" I nod and he slowly helps me up. He helps me onto the bed then turns the TV on and chooses a random movie. He sits down next to me and we watch it. It turns out that he chose the worst movie in the world. "I can't believe that you chose My Little Pony Remade" I punch James in the arm. "Hey! Dakota Fanning was in the cast so I thought that its was going to be a good movie!" he laughs. "And you didn't look at the cover photo?" I laugh. "Why would I?" he shrugs. All of a sudden the door bursts open. I look and see Katie burst in. "I can't believe that you forgave her!" she yells. We both stand up. "Oh, so you expected me to never forgive her?" James snaps. "Of course I thought that! She ears dropped on a private conversation! I've never told anyone that information!" she directs that at me. "WELL I AM SORRY IF MY STUPID HALF SISTER, DOESN'T COME BEFORE MY GIRLFRIEND! WAKE UP! SHE'S MIGHT NOT BE HERE TOMORROW, BUT YOU WILL!" James screams and I flinch by the sound. He hardly ever yells like that. Even Katie looks taken back by that. With a final glare at me she leaves. "I'm sorry" James turns to me. "It's okay" I smile. He wraps his arms around me. I keep staring at the door. The last last scene replaying in my head.