Raphael,
I know it's time to stop fighting...that I need to let you go. And I should stop waiting for you to come back. My tears I've shed are all dry now even my body seems to give up, I'm tired. Yes, I loved you and in times we're together I thought you loved me too but when you turned your back and walk away from me I knew I assumed things again didn't I? It's my fault though to believe that what we had was real but you shouldn't made me fall that hard when you know at the very first day you had no plans on catching me, you should have warned me that its all an illusion my mind is making up again. Maybe, just maybe this pain I'm feeling now would be somehow bearable.
I'm writing this letter to put an end to this- to the pain Im feeling. When I think back, there are so much to remember. The best days as you describe it. And I choose to remember the happiness I saw in your eyes, the warmth of your hand, the security in your presence and the hope in your smile. I want to remember you as my beautiful nigthmare. With you, my life felt like a fairytale, you were my knight and shining armor. Your love made everything seemed to be perfect, real I could say but it isn't like the ordinary fairytale I read in books because in our story there is no happily ever after. Just a girl in a corner of her room with just a pain to endure. Yes there were good times but I cant simply forget the bad one. I'm sorry I can't say how luck i am to met someone like you because i wished our paths never crossed that Its better if I hadn't known you. I cant understand though but I know this happens for a reason, I still dont know what it is but on the right time I think ill understand. My heart is now shattered because of the pain you've given me but I believe its just temporary. Im strong woman right? You used to say that to me. For now i'll hold unto that.
Its now time to say good bye for the love, for the anger, for the pain.
Good bye Raph but I just have one plea: Do not come back. You caused me to break but one day. One day I'll find my way to heal.
Jade.
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