Could it be Love?

Chapter 9: Angst.

Quick A/N! I've seen lots of people doing it, and I thought it would look a lot nicer. When a character is thinking, it'll be in italics!! Sorry for the lack of updates lately !

TW: Self Harm and Angst. I'll put a note where the SH starts in case you'd like to skip it.

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(4 day time skip since the date)

Tommy POV:

Toby hadn't been speaking to me much lately. I think he was avoiding me entirely! But I don't care. I don't want to be talking to that prick either.

I sat on my bed, scrolling through twitter. Nothing interesting.

I heard the door open, and Ranboo came in, sitting down next to me.

I immediately clung onto him, leaning up, and kissing him on the cheek.

"Hey Boo!" I said cheerfully.

"Hey Tommy." He replied. He sounded.. off? I ignored it.

"Tommy.. can we talk for a bit?" he asked.

Huh?? what would he want to talk about? Is he going to-

..break up with me?

My eyes started to water, a tear running down my face.

This can't be happening. Am I that bad of a boyfriend? Does he hate me that much? he didn't call me Toms like he normally did.

"Woah woah, are you crying? What's wrong?!" He panicked.

I just cried harder and pulled away from him.

He quickly moved closer to me, and pulled me onto his lap, hugging me tightly. I nuzzled my face into his chest and continued crying.

"Baby, what's wrong? Are you okay?" He asked softly.

I pulled away from his chest and looked up at him.

"Am I that bad of a boyfriend? You want to break up already?" I said, between sobs.

He panicked, and pulled me closer.

"No! Nonono, baby, that's not it. I'm not breaking up with you. If I said I wanted to, I'd be lying to both of us, okay?"

Thank god..

so then.. what did he want to talk about?

"Well, what did you want to talk about then?" I asked.

"Well.. I know you wont like it. But, you have to apologise to Toby at some point."

Damn right I won't fucking like it.

"Why the fuck do I need to apologise? What do you want me to say? 'Hey Toby sorry for not being born a man and then trying to hide it'? because I'm not going to!"

"Toms, please-"

"No! Why would you take his side? If anything, he's in the wrong for barging in! I shouldn't have to apologise for hiding something like that! It's private, I didn't have to tell him!"

I got up and stormed out. I'm not doing this shit right now.

I ran into the bathroom, and locked the door. I turned on the shower and sat in the corner to cry.

Luckily, the shower drowned out the crying.

But eventually, Ranboo came to the bathroom door, and tried to apologise.