#13 Impure regression

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Ello! Sorry I was gone for a bit, I was dealing with family! Hope everyone has been doing good! Enjoy!
Stay safe<3
(TW sh, body dismorphia, passing out, impure age regression)

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Sages POV-
I've been driving for almost a solid 8 hours, I turned off the technology scrambler on my mask 5 hours ago. It's been one heck of a drive! I'm exhausted both mentally and physically, I can barely keep up with my thoughts, and the closer I get to the house the more my emotions are building up.

I pull into the garage at around 3pm. I kill the engine while the garage is closing getting off my bike and heading to the door. I take a step into the house and my body gets flooded by emotions, "I'M NOT TAKING ANOTHER FUCKING MISSION WITHOUT A FUCKING PICTURE, BECAUSE I DID NOT NEED THAT FUCKING REMINDER OF WHAT SHE DID! THAT'S WAS SUCH BULLSHIT! " I scream not even checking if anyone was around as I storm off to my room and into my closet.

(Tw sh)

I finally step into the safety of my room and closet quickly stripping off the clothes that apparently had blood on them. I grab a silver knife I had hidden under neath some clothes. My head suddenly feels fuzzy and my vision is blurry am I crying? 'Just one cut and we'll be better. ' my grip on the handle tightens as tears run down my face, 'DO IT YOU PUSSY' My thoughts are too loud as I run the blade into my thigh opening the skin.

My vision clears as the tears fall from my eyes. There was no pain, I was so far gone in my head, 'one more won't hurt, right? ' Just as I was about to run the blade on my skin again I hear a knock. Pulled back into reality I notice what I just did, 'Fuck' the cut was deeper than any had been before, blood starts to pool around the cut, "Sage can I come in? " Neomar's voice was so warm I wanted her to come in my wolf was whining in my head, "Give me a second just getting changed! " My lie was clear in my voice but so was every other emotion, hopefully she doesn't catch on, "Ok I'll wait out here. " Her voice was uneasy, 'Shit, we can't let her see any of this' My thoughts ring in my head. I go over to my clothes that had been lying in a pile and grabbed my shirt, I tare the fabric and wrap it around my thigh. 'That should work for now' I think to myself, I quickly put the knife back. Pulling out my shark onsie not in the mood to look for actual clothes, I pull it on and walk out the closet.

I see Neomar on my bed looking down at her phone, noticing my presence she lifted her head up

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I see Neomar on my bed looking down at her phone, noticing my presence she lifted her head up. She has a solemn look on her face as she stands up and opens her arms out for a hug. My vision gets cloudy again as I speed walk over to her engulfing myself in her arms and scent as silent tears flood down my face, "It's going to be ok precious baby, I'm here for you sweetie. " Neomar's voice was reassuring as she held me in her arms petting my hair. She moves to the bed moving me in her arms, I wince at the adjustment just now Realizing the pain buzzing in my thigh, "what's wrong Sage? " Neomar asked wiping my cheeks. I took a breath in calming my sobs, "nothing I need to use the restroom real quick. " I said the quickest lie that came to my head, "ok baby, call me if you need anything. " she held a warm smile on her face as I got up to head towards the bathroom.

(TW passing out)

I pulled off the onsie seeing that the thin cloth was already completely soaked through. I took it off grabbing some toilet paper and applying pressure to the cut. I kept changing out the toilet paper bundle each time it bled through and throwing it in the trash, 'Shit I didn't actually notice how deep I cut. ' I thought to myself as I began to slide against the wall to sit down. I didn't notice how dizzy I was getting till I sat down, "Shit! " I exclaimed as another toilet paper bundle was now soaked in blood and was thrown in the trash, "You ok in there Sage? " I hear Neomar's voice slightly. 'I'm so tired'. "Ya, I'll be out in a second! " I tried to get my voice as loud and as normal as possible, the blood loss and general exhaustion where not helping, "Can I come in Sage? I can smell blood! " I hear a slight panicked Neomar behind the door, "No! I just need a second! " I say back slightly panicked, I hope my voice was loud enough. 'Our head feels really fuzzy' My thoughts cut into the panic as my vision starts to prickle into darkness and my ears being to ring forcing myself into a state of derealization, 'FUCK! ' I scream in my head, "Mommy? " I try to say. I guess it worked cause next thing I know Neomar is at my side. The fact that I was naked or that I was vulnerable hadn't hit me. I smiled up at the worried Neomar who was supporting my form in her arms, "I wanna take a nap, is that ok? " I ask as I feel myself slipping away from consciousness, not the best time, "We can take a nap soon baby I need you to stay awake for me ok sweetie? " Neomar's voice was laced with panick. I give her a nod and look down at my thighs, 'ew our thighs are so ugly. ' my thoughts are loud as I close my eyes, 'Where's mommy? ' I open my eyes looking to where she was last. Not seeing her I notice I'm proped up against the bath tub, I look around the room seeing Neomar searching through my cabinets, 'what's she doing? ' I wonder as I adjust my sitting position. The ringing in my ears stop abruptly, and I feel my consuousness being brought back to reality. I looked around at my surroundings and noticed my thigh was starting to  stop bleeding and was slowly stitching itself back together, "Sorry, I'm all good now. You can leave if you want. This isn't really a fun experience to be at the other end of. " I apologize and ramble as I rub my head and get up to grab a towel. 'Oh shit I'm naked.... OH SHIT I'M NAKED! ' I grab a towel wrapping it around my waist and looking over at Neomar to see her confused expression, "I'm going to clean up and take a bath, is that ok? " I ask not knowing what to say, "Sage I'm so confused right now, you were just bleeding out on the floor, you passed out and ten seconds latter you're standing up and apologizing? " she seemed worried, "I'm sorry, I'm usually alone when this happens I don't know what to say with other people. " I was still very much emotional as I felt a tear roll down my cheeks, 'Don't you dare guilt trip her! You where the one who got yourself into that situation and you pulled her into it! You're fucking pathetic! ' My Thoughts yelled at me. I wiped the tear and took a deep breath. Suddenly Neomar was hugging me tightly to her chest, I could hear her sobs, "Sage I thought I lost you, I thought I had just gotten my mate and now they're gone I was terrified! " we fell to the floor as I hugged her back, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you, I didn't know what to do. I came back and I couldn't keep up with my brain I couldn't comprehend what was happening. I'm so sorry! " I said in response. Her next question made my blood run cold, "Why did you do that, what happened? " She asks me as her sobs die down. I can't think my brain felt so full and so empty at the same time, my throat stung, tears pricked at the corner of my eyes, my breathing was getting unsteady, "No. No. No. No. No. No! " I mutter as my past starts poking at my brain, I can feel tears running down my cheeks, "Sage, baby, look at me! It's ok you don't have to answer me right now, try to calm down sweetie, it's ok! " Neomar holds my head in between her hands.

We're sitting across from each other on the bathroom floor, "I'm sorry I still need to process everything... Can I answer your questions after I take a bath? " I question her, "Of course sweet heart, but I'm not leaving you alone. " She states, "Do you want me to give you a bath? " Neomar adds, "Yes pease! " I feel myself slip as Neomar gets up to turn on the water of the bath, "Mama, seepy. " I let out a yawn, my voice was babyish, I'm slipping too far. Neomar looked at me with a warm yet sad face, " Baby can you tell me how old you are? " her voice was warm. I looked at her confused before making grabby hands up at her, completely forgetting that I only had a towel draping over my body. Neomar sounded like she was saying something but it sounded like gibberish, I tried to form words but it came out as me babbling. Neomar gave me a sad smile and picked me up off the floor, I giggled and layed my head on her shoulder.

She gave me a quick bath wrapping me in a towel and taking me to the closet. She grabbed some clothes pulling them on me then heading over to my bed. ' I'm so confused, what's happening? ' I wonder seeing Neomar sit next to me, ' at least mommy's here! '  I think to myself. I cuddle up to Neomar and she tightens her hold on me so we're now cuddled up in my bed. Confused but content I let sleep take over me.

Ello! I'm sorry about the sad chapter! Basically what happened in the end is sage had regressed to a newborn age, age regression isn't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a coping mechanism, it's going to be hard sometimes. I hope everyone is doing good, as always don't be scared to correct anything I write!
Stay safe!

9/3/2022

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