The Main Character of The Story

22th Life: Nightmare

"No no no! Go! Go away from me!"

He scoffed. Smiling lustfully, he said,  "Are you scared, Princess?"

"Don't! Do NOT touch me! Please, your grace!"

He stepped forward. I had no where to go since it's just wall now. He grabbed my hand and gripped it violently.

He chuckled softly.
"Why should I?"

I tried my best to let go of his hand but can't. Suddenly, he raised his free hand and there's a small knife. He brought it to my neck but the knife didn't touch me since I lifted my head slowly.

I stopped lifting once my eyes and his eyes met. He smiled, his eyes saying he won this. He smiled and lend in for a ki-

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I wakes up.

I hardly breathing. My body is full of sweats, I feels dizzy and my body can't stop shacking. I know what this is. It's happening again.

It's the same nightmare. I touches my stomach and then, my lips. The urge to vomit finally came.

I quickly run towards the washroom and lets out every food I ate last night.

No no no... This body is clean, it's clean. Remember that.

Again, the food I ate left itself through my mouth again. And again.

Finally, it stop. I washes my mouth ang face then look myself in the mirror.

"Stop it. You know this body is clean and will always be. Nothing can make this body dirty without your permission. You know that, so why..." tears falling down to my cheeks.

"WHY?!"
I punches the wall besides the mirror hardly so it won't break, and soon falling to my knees slowly as I starts to cry hardly.

Let me cry for a while. I've got a long day to go.

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"Did you got enough sleep last night, my lady?" Flora asked as she brushed my hair.

"Yes, I did." Flora put the hairbrush on the table. I took a bracelet that matched with the dress I was wearing. Soft yellow with a combination of white.

"Well then, I finished brushing your hair! Do you wish to go anywhere after having your breakfast, my lady?" Flora asked while pulled out her hand to escort me to The Dining Room to eat with father.

There seems to be a lot to do yet, I don't know what to do. I can't just lay down after having a breakfast. It would make my digestive system bad. Although I can sure myself that it is bad because of my unstable emotions, I don't wish my digestive system worsens because of my actions.

However, I do want to know how to make that.

"I wish to go to the library. Also, can you bring me a pair of safety gloves and give it to me when I ask for it?" answered me to Flora's question. And just for safety, I too need the gloves.

"Yes, my lady." replied Flora, not questioning my answer at all. Truly, Flora and Legalis(her father's butler) are the only ones that understand me,  after Count Fredrick, Uncle Louis(Countess Fredrick's younger brother) and Daniel(her brother as Diana Carol).

Ah, him too.

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That's why it bothered me so much.

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In the library

"Is there anything I can help you with, my lady?" asks Decry, the librarian.