Finding My Second Swan

Chapter 4

CHAPTER FOUR

One time while Matty sat playing on his Xbox, I sat in the same room making a list of things I'd need for my hospital stay. You know, for when my baby decides to arrive. I was pretty terrified because I had no clue what I was doing. Sadly for me, neither did he.
He would act as if he did, especially when his friends were there. But I knew the truth because as soon as they'd left, he was back to being the selfish Twat he was. And that was him, leaving everything to me to sort out.
It drove me crazy. Everything he did drove me nuts. I didn't trust him, especially when it came to other women. I was pregnant with his kid and he'd be drooling whenever a blonde walked past him. Whether in the street or a shop; I'd stand there, by his side and he'd stare at them.
I don't know. I guess if I knew I had a place to go, I would've left him. Sadly, I didn't. That's because my mother didn't want me back home. Not with a baby in tow.

Two weeks before I was due, to have our baby, I discovered him cheating. It was with some troll when he was in town with his friends... Again, I got stuck at home, pregnant with his baby. As you can imagine, I was devastated. I wanted to run away and die. How could he do this? What exactly did I do wrong here? I've been a doting girlfriend, taking care of him and his home. I also bought everything we needed for our baby. Well, everything I could afford anyway. But it devastated me. I only found out because he'd talk in his sleep, and the first thing I did was check his phone when he wasn't looking.
*JAY*
*I'll see you tonight, right?*

*MATTY*
*Yeah, I'll be around as soon as I can. My housemate will be in, so you can't come round tonight.*

*JAY*
*Oh, no worries. I can't wait to see you again. I had fun the other night. We have to try that thing again. ;)"

*MATTY*
*Oh, I can't wait, baby. You felt so good. No one has ever allowed me to do that before. Honestly, your pussy was made for my dick. I'm actually in bed now holding my dick thinking of when I'd sunk into your arse. Perfect baby, fucking perfect I only wish you were here now.*

*JAY*
*Oh baby, I like the sound of that.*

Yeah, I won't go on. I'll spare you the rest of the details. He denied any wrongdoing of course. He also tried to tell me "It was just one of my friends messing about." What the fuck, really? How stupid did he think I was?
Anyway, because I had nowhere to go, I had to stay. Only I slept in our baby's room on an air bed. He refused to leave his room, and I refused to sleep in the same bed.
Yeah, I know he's such a gentleman. Prick!
So yeah, I eventually gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. That was almost four years ago now. I'd given birth to one special little angel, one I named Lucas Aaron Fox.
I don't know why. I guess I just liked the name. Well, the Arron part is my granddad's name, but the Lucas part; I just liked the name. Unfortunately, he's got his father's last name, Fox. Matthew Fox, a waste of space daddy who never even sees his child. Sadly, he's the reason I'm struggling. I'm still yet to receive any money from him for his child. He's not working, so "apparently" he can't support his only child.
Well, as far as I know, he's his only child. He's probably got a litter around here somewhere.

We eventually parted ways after he once again cheated. This was after deciding together that we'd try again after Lucas was born. I guess it was stupid of me to ever think he'd stay true to me. You know what they say, "A leopard never changes its spots." I guess it goes the same way for me too. It took me a long time to realise he was never going to love me, and it took a long time to finally see the light. I saw it and left. Luckily for me, my dad helped me out. He found us a little two-bedroom flat. I mean, it's not ideal, especially with having a toddler running around. I had to invest in a few safety gates to keep him away from the stairs, but other than that, it's a decent place. Sadly, we have no garden. It's just a little yard, and it's a total mess. I refuse to hang my washing out there. It's that bad.