Destroying Relationships With Something You Can't Control

Hospital.

"HAJIME WHY? WHAT HAPPENED IS IT SOMETHING I DID??"

"No It's nothing you did. This is just who I am."

Oikawa pulled Iwaizumi off the bed and watched the blood flow from the gashes. He was manic. His cheeks slashed open. Able to see the teeth as far back as they go when he smiled. His mouth filled with blood. Iwaizumi was rapidly going pale. Oikawa called 911.

"EVERYTHINGS GONNA BE OKAY HAJIME STAY WITH ME PLEASE"

"I'm sorry Tooru"

"DONT BE SORRY ITS OKAY LOVE ITS OKAY"

"I'm sorry"

"KEEP YOUR EYES OPEN DONT GO TO SLEEP"

Iwaizumi closed his eyes and listened to Oikawas screams. He didn't care anymore. He wished he were dead. He opened his eyes when he felt Oikawas warm hands on his face. Suddenly he was in a hospital.

"Stay with me Hajime please... I can't lose you..."

"Tooru?"

Oikawas eyes widened and he began crying tears of joy, he climbed into the hospital bed and laid on top of Iwa.

"What happened?"

"You went through a really bad episode and slashed your face open."

"Oh."

"Do you want to see?"

"Y-yeah-"

Oikawa grabbed the mirror beside him and showed Iwaizumi. He ran his fingers along the stitches on his face.

"I really did this?"

"Yeah- you- you did."

He slowly opened his mouth, unraveling a few of the stitches.

"Baby no!"

Oikawa began to shake, freaking out.

"Baby I'm fine"

"NO YOURE NOT."

Iwaizumi jumped at the yelling, not expecting it from his usually quiet boyfriend.

"I ALMOST FUCKING LOST YOU!! YOU ARENT FUCKING FINE YOU SLASHED YOUR CHEEKS OPEN AND JUST FUCKING... WAITED THERE TO DIE"

Iwa sat there silently, not sure what to say.

"AND DONT YOU DARE SAY SORRY. I KNOW YOURE SORRY. YOU HAVE NOTHING TO BE SORRY FOR. I SHOULDVE BEEN THERE. EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE!"

A doctor walked in on the screaming and lead Oikawa out of the room to calm down. Iwaizumi sat in the eerie silence. He laid back down and stared at the roof. He really didn't remember any of this. He unraveled more of the stitches by accident while trying to drink water.

"Can you bring him back please?!"

The doctor led Oikawa back into the room, the brunettes face tear streaked and red. Iwaizumi held his arms out for Oikawa to climb into his lap. He listened and looked iwaizumi in the eyes.

"I know I don't seem okay at all. And I'll be honest. I'm not. But I'm willing to get better. I just need help. Okay?"

"I- okay. I just don't want to lose you."

"You won't lose me. I'd never leave you here alone."

He pulled Oikawa to lay beside him, kissing the top of his head. Quiet sobs continued to escape oikawas mouth. Iwaizumi just stroked his hair and stayed quiet. He was done with the lying. He wasn't okay and he was tired of saying he was.