i've lost my heart to you..

Chapter:11

"i need you"

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Around 3a.m harry woke up due to the sound of thunder it was pouring so hard outside. He clutched his blanket tightly on his chest, there was a void feeling_ something was definitely missing and it was Zayn's hands which he was holding while crying. His tear stained face was still glistering under the shade of dim moonlight, the look on Zayn's face when he mentioned Elijah's name was horrific and harry regret that he was too drunk in his own love that he forgot Zayn is his husband and nothing can change that. He knows marriage is a pure relation and he should be loyal towards his husband just like his dad and mum taught him, but how could anyone can control the desires of heart.

He turned towards Zayn who was sleeping on the couch, his body half covered with woollen shawl and that frown was still there on his forehead. He worry too much about everything specially about harry, he treats him like a new born and even though harry didn't want to admit but love from the person who's his husband always swells his heart.

 It's a bittersweet love, when he knows that he has nothing to give Zayn then also latter won't stop himself from doing everything he could just to make him smile.

Harry slowly walked towards the couch and kneeled down in front of his sleeping figure he wanted to wake him up and ask him something, but his heart was beating too fast and he was scared to touch his face or his shoulder. After withdrawing his hands few times from his face he whispers so slowly that he couldn't even hear his own voice. 

" zayn um wake up."

When he didn't he shook him putting his trembling fingers on his shoulders. Eventually Zayn woke up his eyes still sleepy and voice hoarse but when he saw harry's face, his pure eyes staring at him while fidgeting  with the hem of his shirt. Zayn cupped his face with both of his hands and made him look into his eyes cause then only he could read his mind, his thoughts which were conflicted in each-other.

"wus wrong you had nightmare or something."

He asked when he saw harry was also staring at him asking him so many things with his eyes, harry shook his head and without warning launched himself in his arms, Zayn was not ready so he fell on the floor with harry on top of him, he held him by his waist while his other hand was around his neck. Zayn hissed and harry whispers a small sorry but still laying on top of him, it was so uncomfortable for Zayn cause either harry is way too close to him or way too far from him. A light shade of breeze blew and tickled harry's curls a small tendrils fell on his forehead, and small sigh escaped zayn's lips. The more he want to unlove him the more he falls for him. He gently sneaked his arms around his waist and made him sit on the floor, latter was not meeting his eyes anymore so they both sat in the silence facing eachother waiting for something which was still unknown.  

"i love rain."

Harry whispers after half an hour of silence between them, it was around 4 but sky was still covered under the dark shade of cloud. Zayn nodded his head his eyes stuck on harry's face, it was dark so only his long lashes were visible making it so hard for Zayn to move his eyes anywhere cause the beauty of whole universe was sitting beside him and fate is so cruel that he's not allowed to touch him. Like you can admire moon from far but can't say a word that moon is beautiful. Harry is as beautiful as forest and ocean and Zayn was not allowed to lost and sink, he is sun and Zayn is not allowed to burn himself in it but he has to fly as close as he could. 

Harry don't know how and when but suddenly Zayn took his soft palms in his own hands and ran towards their balcony, thunder storm spiked through the dark sky and suddenly it started to rain again, harry yelled that let's go we'll get sick and tried to move but Zayn pulled him back holding him close to his chest, the rain hung on harry's lashes running down on his cheeks, and then finally on his lips Zayn envy everything that touch harry's skin, it should be only him and no one else. Not even those morning rays of sun which sees his face before zayn and neither that faded light of star which admire his harry's beauty in the darkness of night. 

He's drunk in love, sinking in an unsinkable ship, drowning in an ocean and burning in a fire.

"when we love something we embrace them, we never run from them."

Zayn said and wrapped his arms around harry's waist latter was shivering cause just an hour ago he was under the warmth of duvets and now here drenching himself in the last rain of december. He smiled seeing the way zayn's eyes were sparkling  under the little droplets of rain. His green eyes were foggy but heart knew that this guy who was holding him in his arms under rain won't ever give up on him. Zayn closed his eyes feeling the way harry was in his arms clutched to his chest , he was mesmerized by the view in front of him. Everything was dull, that rain and  those stars they were nothing in front of harry, but he was afraid  that just like a beautiful dream, it would all be over if he opened his eyes. 

cause harry is still his dream...

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you've been in love...

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