i've lost my heart to you..

Chapter:6

"i won't stop loving you no matter what you do"

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" How do i look?"

Harry asked in a small voice when he came back from changing room wearing a white sweater, Zayn who was just looking at mirror dropped his tie when his eye landed on harry. Words were clogged in his throat, it becomes so hard for him to speak whenever harry look at him like this, so he nodded his head. Harry was standing there fiddling with the hem of his long sleeve, his lashes down and red lips curled up into a small pout. only if he knew what he was doing to zayn's heart. Zayn looked down , trying not look long at him cause he knows harry is as bright as sun or maybe more.

 Love is a fire and zayn was standing in between ready to consume by it, resisting his love was something which he cannot do, so he'll burn himself in it. i cannot let you burn me up, nor can i resist you. No mere human can stand in a fire and not be consumed." 

Harry muttered something which was almost inaudible, only if Zayn was not so focused on him as always, he excused himself but no before telling him that you look beautiful but red suits you more. Christmas was just few days away and Zayn mum insisted them to go for a shopping. After their conversation harry was soft towards Zayn, he would give him smile if their eyes ever met accidentally, they would have coffee together in their balcony cause harry was sleep deprived and Zayn cannot sleep if harry's awake, harry would help him with his office work and sometimes when they'll gather for a movie together with their whole family Zayn would sit beside harry and the latter never denied this new  unsaid and unknown relationship.

But the distance between their heart was same, a night before yesterday zayn told him to sleep on bed and that he would take couch but harry denied whispering bed feels cold without him, zayn didn't asked him why it feels so cold when i'm right here, neither why are you hurting yourself so much cause somehow he knows by being together both of them are hurting eachother. Specially harry cause the one whom he love so much is far away from him, and the one whom Zayn loves is near him but much far than far, a distance which he don't know how to fill, a voidness which will always remain empty, a dulled moon without any stars.

"you want something else?"

Zayn asked when harry came carrying two shopping bags the latter shook his head and they head for payment and that's when harry noticed his name on bill it was written harry zayn malik, suddenly the shine of that wedding ring was too much for his eyes and Zayn's smile and everything which Zayn was doing for him was making him blind. His eyes welled up with tears and the pain in his chest which was gone for a moment was back there again screaming Elijah's name.

"come on let's go."

Zayn said and started moving but harry puts his hand on his shoulder, the raven haired guy turned back only to be bleed again when harry asked him why did you married me zayn?. When zayn didn't replied harry asked him again his green orbs were shinning with tears and it was pricking zayn's heart so he chuckled with a fake smile on his face.

cause i fell for you without telling you, without knowing that you belongs to someone else, cause i'm deeply in love with you.

" i guess jus cause it was you know time for meh to get married and settle down. Like  my grandad got married at twenty, my dad at twenty three,so i was twenty five and gran was bugging me so i jus said yes."

" what about you why did you agreed?"

Zayn asked at last when they settle down in the car on their way back to home. Harry looked at him for a second and then replied my dad forced me . Harry puts his head on window, smooth air making his hair shade his already sleepy eyes. Meanwhile Zayn started driving something has changed and he knows that.

"dad won't agree i'm telling you let's run away."

"i'll convince him somehow, i would tell him your son is the most precious art sir and i need him at any cost."

Elijah replied but harry rolled his eyes and slapped him on his chest, he was pleading him to take him away from everyone from the moment they confessed their undying love to each other. But Elijah was so persistent that he would convince his dad and he couldn't break his dad's trust. But harry knows his boundary and the tradition of his family, he knows everything even about the past of his family, the consequences of falling in love . He knows he shouldn't have, he knows how his father abandoned his elder sister cause she fell for a boy of some other  caste, but his heart was not in control. 

" you don't know in what you're  getting yourself into."

Harry muttered and turns his away, Elijah sneaked his arms under the sheets and engulfed the curly lad in his arms, inhaling his scent like always.

"one day someone will marry me and you just keep sitting here talking about arts with my dad".

" that would never happen you're mine and always will be mine."

Elijah whispered and pressed his lips on his rosy ones, even their shadows were giggling in the dim moonlight. The sweet fragrance of  cotton candy on his tongue which he bought from a fair for him was making his heartbeat insane. Harry pulls him close by his neck admiring his eyes which was admiring his own face. He makes him shy, he makes him blush, he makes him gorgeous and he makes him a lover . Is there something else which he needs in his life the answer was no, the man in his arms is perfect and they're perfect. Harry just wished fate won't play it's own game.

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"i was a wave of your ocean
i was tears of those eyes
i was that unused ink which crave to  to be on that page,
i was rage of your heart
and the muse of your every art,
i was rain of your clouds
and your only moon in this crowd,
i was your unknown but known
i was 'yours' much more than i was ever 'mine'."

That's how Zayn feels.

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