i've lost my heart to you..

Chapter:1

''your touch burn my skin"

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The whole city was ignited with lights, the path on which harry was walking with his hands in zayn's were adorn with rose petals. When his husband took his hands in his, harry flinched away on his touch, it was an feeling of guilt and grief. He haven't made eye contact with him, he don't even know how he looks cause his eyes were too busy admiring each hues of Elijah. They were walking towards entrance gate with an traditional music playing on their way. Harry didn't wanted to walk on this path with him, but when he looked up with glossy eyes zayn was waving at his sisters with a smile so bright that it could make harry blind. 

"when i'll marry you whole city will be ignited with firelight, and i would walk  on a path full of petals with you in my arms waving at my mum."

" Harry"

"huh"

" welcome home, hurry up zayn must be waiting for you, go it's your first night don't make him wait for too long."

Harry wanted to correct her that his 'home' is gone or lost somewhere this couldn't be his home,cause his home was elijah, but he didn't. Cause no one would understand, he gave trisha a smile and took his clothes from her hand. Each step on stairs towards zayn's room felt like a walk towards his own grave, it would've been so easy if there was elijah instead of zayn waiting for him with a bouquet of red rose in his hands, it would've been so easy if his name didn't hold malik at last, instead it would've elijah's name but it isn't and its killing him. when he entered in the room zayn was in washroom so he changed his clothes and tug himself under the sheets on the other side of bed maintaining as much as distance as he could. When he heard the sound of door he  closed his eyes, hear-beat racing and tears welled up in his eyes and soon they started flowing and this time he didn't held them back.

 When zayn puts his hand on his shoulder he flinched away your touch burn my skin zayn scooted away from him asking did i do something wrong to which harry whispered I'm jus tired i want to sleep, zayn nodded his head and harry turned back and fell asleep, but zayn was awake whole night, his eyes stuck on the lamp casting vintage yellow light. He trace the distance between him and harry on bed with his fingertips, it was so long like an ocean and zayn don't know how to swim. He walked towards his balcony after half an hour and lit a cigarette, inhaling it felt good specially when someone as beautiful as harry is his husband now. He couldn't have imagined that someone like harry would agree to marry him, a boring guy with boring job. And harry is like the first rays of sun, always giggly with a goofy smile on his moon like face. He saw him two three times in party and at last he asked his dad to talk to harry's dad and after that they got engaged.

When harry woke up shower was already on so he started arranging his clothes,but soon he felt two arms wrapping around his waist from behind he detached himself from zayn's arms with tears in his eyes.

"don't touch me."

He yelled and wiped his tears zayn was shocked and hurt could be seen on his face, their door was open so he closed it first cause if his mum would heard any of this then it won't end well. 

"what's wrong ? are you not happy marrying me tell me before it gets too late harry or you don't like me?"

Harry shook his head and rushed into the washroom, his father's words were flashing in his mind that neither zayn and nor his family should ever come to know about elijah and him. He cried in the shower putting both of his hands on his mouth so no one would heard his sobbings, while zayn wiped his lone tear which fell on his cheek from his glistering eyes for the first time.

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loving can hurt, oh damn it hurt so much..

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