i've lost my heart to you..

Chapter:19

" don't hide your beauty that I've seen"

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"Please take me with you."
Harry whispered from doorway with zayn's tie in his hand. While the other one was packing his suitcase occassionally kissing harry, cause he didn't want him to go anywhere. From a week he was clingy always wanted to be with him and they had a little fight too cause harry was not ready to understand that Zayn has to leave.

He engulfed him from behind, wrapping his soft arms around his waist, face buried in his neck .Zayn turn around and kissed his forehead, whispering it's just for a week and I'll call you everyday.But harry shook his head hugging him more tightly, his wet eyes made contact with his cold skin and it was a ache for zayn's heart. It always ache so much whenever harry cry.

"Harry it's just for a week don't make it hard, it's a new city for me that's why I can't take you with me."

Zayn replied and pressed his lips on his closed eyelids wiping his tears with his thumb. From the moment Zayn break this news to him harry didn't take it well. He screamed at him that how could you leave me alone for a week, cried on his chest that i can't sleep without you. Everything he could do to break zayn's wall, but Zayn was persistent about his decision.

"I can't sleep without you."
Harry mumbled while tieing his tie, Zayn kissed his lips but harry didn't let him pull back probably it was their last kiss for a while. So many hours and minutes and uncountable seconds he has to live without his shadow.

He's habitual of him, the one habit he never wanted to quit. He was not aware that loving someone this much would feel so good, so ethereal that his eyes are blinded by the gaze of zayn's eyes. Only he knows that how much he loves him, consumed by him with every cell of his body.

" Don't eat much from outside and I've made something put it in refrigerator as soon as you reach, and wear that black shirt in your meeting with grey tie, don't drive while you're on call and um please miss me every second."

Zayn nodded his head his lips still attached to his neck and Harry's arms were holding him close to his own body, their breathe mingling and heartbeat rhyming with eachother. Letting go was so hard that Zayn wanted to call his boss and quit his job right then & there, how would he live without his harry in his arms for a week.

"I always miss you even if you're with me, holding me close, i always miss you."

"Don't let anyone flirt with you or I'll kill them."

"I don't even look at anyone, why would I when I've the beauty of whole universe in my arms."

Harry slapped him on his chest with a small smile on his lips. Their eyes met again and harry couldn't stop himself from kissing him again. That's when zayn's phone started ringing it was getting late, so finally after a  dozen of kisses and so many hugs they let go of eachother. Harry was standing in his balcony waving his hand until zayn's car was out of his sight. He was about to cry but Zayn immediately called him on phone. They talked for a while whispering i love yous and i miss yous though it was just an hour or two. Harry said he was sleepy, but he didn't  wanted him to cut the call and who was Zayn to deny his wish. So harry fell asleep while Zayn kept listening his breathing and snores whole night.

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It's been two days since Zayn left and harry was miserable. Phone calls were not enough, neither that i love you on weak connection. He was missing him so much, zayn's cologne on his body was also not enough to feel his smell or to get his warmth back. Whenever Zayn would call him he would always breakdown, begging him to come back that nights feel lonely and so is his every day.

"Harry there're some letters for you maybe from your parents go check it out hun."

Trisha said from kitchen when he came downstairs with his puffy eyes and face without the glow of his love. It only glow when Zayn is around, without him he resembles dulled moon. Trisha and Yasir always try to indulge him with something to lighten up his mood, but his eyes would be always stuck on the door and his phone.

When his eyes landed on those letters his heartbeat started racing and tears welled up in his eyes. What game is fate playing with him. He could feel the smell of that ink and the expression of those words, scars of tears on evey full stop and coma. He clutched those letters on his chest and ran towards his room. Tears streaming through his eyes and falling on the carpeted floor.

Suddenly everything was gloomy, the lights and the darkness, the silence and the loneliness in his heart. He haven't seen his face from so many months and days that he was scared to open his letter and read a word from him. What if he's dead? What if he's waiting for harry on their special place?

He opened the first letter there was a wilt rose inside it. 'H' written on each petals, lipprints on each corner of page but this time harry didn't pressed his lips on them like he used to do.

My harry

Don't know you're mine or not cause, someone told me you're married . But trust me i don't believe them and i won't believe their words that you don't love me anymore unless you look into my eyes and tell me to leave you alone cause you belongs to someone else.

It's not that hard to love you my love, and I'm sure that guy must have already fallen for you. But this heart of mine that you still own crave to be in your arms. I'm still waiting for you , breathing just for you every minute and every second. Do you still love me? or is there a part of yours that still belongs to me? if yes i would love to see your face. I'm waiting for you my baby please come and hold me.

Only yours Elijah!

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