Me and my husband ,we're sticking together </3

Zizzy's Diary prompt cause i have no ideas

Dear diary,
Nothing much happened today, more like nothing out of the ordinary. Absolutely no day that's spent here is peaceful,not in a bad way though. Maybe a bit but that depends on the day I guess.  But like always, I saw that fucking idiot,pony; god I hate him. I think.

Look,don't come and judge me just because I can't get my feelings in a normal order ok? It's not like it's my damn fault. Anyway, I hate that horse, whenever he smirks at me, god I just wanna..ugh idk,all I know is that; everything I have with him is complicated. I mean we're parents yet best friends yet we fuck yet we're nothing close to dating. ITS SO GOD DAMN CONFUSING,HONESTLY  IT ALL STARTED THE FIRST TIME WE DID IT; THEN EVERYTHING JUST CONFUSED ME.

i wish we never did it, but it's always just be him and me (yes that's a mitski reference) it's always been like that, we're the parents, we're the couple that's not a couple. It's always just us, and we're used to it. All I know is that there's a hole in my heart that he fills for some reason ( yes another one). My brain doesn't want me to get attached to him but eventually my heart won.

it always does. All my brain wants to do is not let us get hurt again. Problem is that I can't find out if I want to continue to fight with him or do it solo. Look,I like having him as my partner but he always gets on my nerves,I don't even know how I haven't snapped yet. Speaking of that, apparently my accent really comes out when I'm angry. Huh. I'm not one to usually have an accent but I can't really hide it either, apparently, he likes it,how? Idk. I'll never understand him and I can't really let him go either.

Anyway(why do I say that a lot), zee and zuzy drew my hat on their necks,I'm somewhat disappointed and proud cause the art's good but why on their necks? Ugh, I can't understand anyone here except for Georgie I guess. I mean I get his sadness, the kids remind me a lot of myself if that didn't happen to me when I was younger, I'd probably be a lot better than how I am now.

If all that didn't happen to me,I wouldn't be on so tough and strict and on my guard all the god damn time. Maybe I'd be happier but I have a reputation to uphold, everyone knows me as scary and mean and cold-hearted and I like it like that,maybe only cause I'm afraid that it would happen again and even worse, would happen to my zee and zuzy but I'd never let that happen to them or the rest of my kids.

Anyway,I think I have to go. I don't know if I can update this tomorrow or something. But I'll try.

-zizzy

(A/N: hey Tommy here, just would like you to know That the writing part of my brain is out of juice and I need ideas,please give suggestions. But other than that,thanks a lot of reading this no idea-ed chapter and love you,readers)