Lost In Emotions

three

Alexa's POV

I open my eyes to see a vision of Thomaz staring into my eyes. He has this strange smirk on his face which makes me shout out loud.

Then he began kissing all over me just like he did the last time.

My jumped on my huge belly making me scream in pain.

I screamed as my eyes shut open to see the room filled with darkness.

"Alexa. What's wrong?" Thomas said in his sleepy voice.

It was all a dream. I said to myself and see that Thomas had perfectly been sleeping on the couch.

"It's like five in the morning." He said. "The sun hasn't even put yet.

I growled and turned myself to Thomas who has now sat on the couch looking at me.

"You okay." He asked standing up and grabbing a water bottle for me.

"Just a nightmare." I said taking a zip and setting the bottle on the side of the nightshade.

"Wanna talk about it." He asked looking concern.

"No." I replied straightforward.

How could I tell my ex-boyfriend who raped me that I dreamed of hime doing the same thing to me. And how could I just accept his comfort when all he did was hurt me.

"Go back to sleep." He commanded and settled himself on the couch.

The sun started to get out of the sky as I can feel the room is filled with light. It must be around seven.

Thomas is still sleeping.

The worst feeling came as I ran to the bathroom. I thtowed up all I ate yesterday, then I realized that there was blood with what I have thrown. I flushed the toilet and brushed my teeth.

Thomas has awaken this time. He grabbed his jacket and started putting on his shoes to get going.

"I'll see you next week." He said waving goodbye.

The doctor told me that I need bed rest so I was given sick leave papers for a week.

Just as Thomas's engine started I went downstairs to get some breakfast prepared. I'm hungry since all I ate was at around five yesterday and after that I didn't have the energy to each anything.

I put two eggs and some slices of bacon into the hot pan. Then I got some bread slices toasted.

I poured myself a glass of orange juice and settled on the couch turning the TV on.

A thought occurred to me that I haven't told my parents any of this. The fact that I'm pregnant and alone.

I'll plan to tell them today but I need  the courage  to lie to them telling that Thomas is really supportive and stays beside me everytime.

So firstly I called Thomas. He answered on his first ring.

"Everything alright." He asked knowing that I'll call him when I need him.

"Yes I'm fine. I just had breakfast." I said. "So listen, I want you to pretend we are still together just for my parents. That doesn't mean you have to stay here, just if the call say 'Alexa is fine or I just visited her and I had to go home to work' and stuff like that so that they think nothing happened between us."

"Why is that?" He asked.

"Just do what I said." I snapped.

"Okay." He responded simply.

I took the coorage and called my parents. The replied on the first ring which was a good sign.

"Sweetie how are you doing.?" Mom asked calmly.

"Just had breakfast."

She ended up telling me everything about thier trip including that they met some good friends.

"Mom there's something I need to say."

"Okay go on Alexa."

"I'm pregnant." I mutters.

There was a pause between the two lines of phones. This can't be good. I thought.

"I'm not gonna say I'm angry at you, but you're nineteen now and you have the right to yourself. So do whatever decision that make you happy."

"Thanks mom for the words." I said gladly.

We hung up soon after she asked me how is Thomas supporting me and she said that she will be sending some extra cash for any excess spendings.

I got up from the couch and did the dishes. I'm not in the mood to cook for lunch so I thought to order takeout.

The time passed by slowly. I wasn't feeling hungry so I sat down watching a movie.

The door bell ring woke me up from the couch uncomfortably.

"Shit." I muttered as I knew the dortor said make sure the way I act isn't harming the babies.

The door bell ringed again making me feel cosy. I hurried slowly but before Icould get there the door has already opened revealing an upset looking Thomas.

"What the.. You're not supposed to enter someone's how like this, it's rude." I said .

"I was worried before you took long to reply."

"I just stood up in a wrong position. I had to process it before I come to the door."

"You're okay." He asked.

"Yeah just let me sit down."

He handed me a bag before I settle myself on the couch.

"I bought you takeouts. You're favourite chicken salad and cheese fries."

We sit down on the couch as I'm a metre from him in the far end of the couch and he is in the other end.

"Why are you doing all of this instantly?" I asked.

"Because I still like you." Be said making me feel terrible.

The he moved towards me. I tried to maintain the distance but he came closer and closer.

He holds both of my hands in his hands and started at my eyes.

"I'm sorry Alexa." He said.

I didn't have the courage the accept his apology but all I could say that this was not the Thomas I met the other day.

He was different. He gave me a warm hug and I gladly accepts it as I felt comfortable rounded but his strong arms. 

He wasn't able to spend the day with me as he had to back to work. So we ate togetheras he admires me eating the cheese fries.