Lost In Emotions

seven

Alexa's POV

Today I'm having a doctor's appointment where I get to know the genders of the babies.

It's been a month since Thomas moved in with me. We didn't argued or any nonsence conversations.

Even though I'm five months pregnant I still go through morning sickness. Last time I checked with the doctors they said it's fine because I'm having twins.

I'm glad that I feel already and I know my body is cooperating a lot through out this pregnancy.

As Thomas wants me to stop working he promised to drive me to mg office after the appointmentso I woud grab my stuff.

I put on a blouse and a tight plain black skirt with a black sandals. I pulled two strands of hair and clipped it together.

Thomas has already gotten up and enjoying his morning coffee on the tablewith a couple of muffins.

"I mad some hot chocolatefor you and here have a muffin." He said pushinv the plate towards me as I sat across him.

"You look cute today." He complimented on my looks.

"Thanks." I nod taking a sip of the drink.

"Kinda nervous right." He asked grabbing my hand.

"Its not about the genders. Its about the comments the doctor go to say."

"You'll be fine." He asked as we both stood up from the table.

I grabbed my bag as Thomas grabbed his car keys.

He opened the door as he watches me carefully take my seat on the passenger's seat. He jumped in and started the engine as we drove to the hospital.

The whole ride he was holding my hand as rubbing it while helped me a lot to get rid of the nervous thoughts in my mind.

We arrived at the hospital not after long. Thomas opened the door for me but I can feel my legs helping me to get up. He helped to stand and all I could do was to stare at my feet's.

"Alexa you have been strong and I want you to be stronger." He said giving me a heartfelt hug making sure not to crush my belly. He kissed me on my forehead as we made our way inside.
I had to wait for fifteen minutes in the like which felt like hours.

As my turn came I entered the room making myself comfortable.on the small high bed. The doctor applied a cool gel on my belly as she carried on the ultrasound.

Thomas eyes was on the screen as I saw my both healthy babies sleeping next to each other. They are now much bigger from the last time.

"you're ready to know the genders." The doctor asked with an excitement in her voice. I guess they are used to this stuff acting all exited to support their patient's mentality.

"yes." Both Thomas an I replied.

"you're having two girls. Congratulations." She said.
I looked Thomas in his face who is now filled with happiness all around his face. He kissed me on my cheek and smiled once again.

We smiled at each other doing our own celebration inside our head.

Everything was okay but here comes the worst part when the doctor has to comment about my pregnancy.

"Alexa we met up last time and I told you everything including how your body will be having complications throughout this pregnancy."
I nod feeling my mood swing as a little sadness takes up my face.

"so today l've got to say that it is possible for you to have the babies before nine months. It can either be six months also. So I want you to go on bed rest and stop being stressed. That's all l've got to say so I'll see you in a month."

The doctor grabbed her stuff as she lives the room leaving me speechless. Thomas knew the fact that I wasn't in the right mood to talk so he helped me from the bed as I went to get my next appointment date. Thomas was waiting for me next to the car.

I sat there feeling helpless once again. Great I thought. Now this is getting worse than I thought. A tear streamed down my face.

"you're okay." Thomas asked before starting the engine.

"yes am fine." I lied.

"don't lie to me like that Alexa." He said making my blood to heat up.

"then why did you ask than danm question. I said im fine let's just get going."

"you're not fine Alexa." He shouts making me jump. Okay now this conversation is getting worse.

"I fucked your life up and now you're not okay. You can't lie to me like that."

Tears rolled down my face. Not from anger but from him saying he fucked my life up.

"just drive." I shouted into his face as he started driving.
I need to be strong. I said to myself as I rubbed the tears of. I felt stupid enough letting him back to my life. I wish my life was like a normal pregnant teen.

Thomas stopped the car signaling we have arrived. I opened the door time by myself and putting all the courage to get up. I slammed the door loud as Thomas curse a word.

I tried my best not to get his help but for god's sake me bag felt when I was grabbing the keys. Great now I can't bend down and there is no possible way of getting inside the house without grabbing the key from the floor. I bend down but no help.

Without a word Thomas grabbed my stuff as I snatched the bag from his hand. He opened the door and I made myself way in throwing myself on the couch.

Im really pissed off and the worst part is im hungry and literally craving for burger and fries. Thomas made his way upstairs and my poor body struggles on the couch with hunger.

You go apologies and he'll get what you want. My mind says as it argues with my heart who said no all
the time.

"fine." I shout out and get from the couch. I climbed the stairs like a freak and opened the guest room door knowing he will be there.

Thomas laid on the bed shirtless as his laptop on his lap.

I climbed to the bed next to him like a five-year-old child.

"you're hungry." He said reading my mind.

I nod as he stood up to order what I want.