I Was Always There

10

I got covid from my vacation, so my brain isn't fully here. I'm sorry if this chapter is just absolutely horrible. 

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  The Star and Moon contest is in a few days and I could feel my anxiety increasing with every ticking moment.  I kept practicing my talent after classes, and Kit joined me when he could. It's been kinda awkward ever since the beach trip...well on my part mainly. 

  I just can't help it. Every time I see him I start getting weird feelings in my stomach. I still can't figure out what it all means but it has been affecting my waking thoughts. 

  Ming has noticed a difference in me lately and keeps looking at me with curiosity in his eyes. 

  "So Yo are you still planning on confessing to Pha after the contest?" he asked. 

  I stared at him in shock. "I completely forgot about that plan" I almost yelled in surprise. 

  He just stares at me with a calm look that I can't decipher. I think I saw his eyes show a moment of relief, but I'm not sure. 

  "Have you moved on?" he says in a soothing volume.

I just stare down at my lunch and after what feels like minutes I hear myself blurt out "I don't know". 

  He looks at me and then gives me his classic charming smile. He ruffles my hair preparing to walk away before turning to me and saying "Well I would figure it out if I were you because it's hurting others more than you think". 

  I just blink as he walks away not quite knowing what he meant.  Before I knew it, I found myself back at my dorm. The whole day just flashed before my eyes as I just walked around with Mings's words echoing in my brain.  

I looked at my clock and it was already ten. I just wasted the whole day in my thoughts.  I decided to take a shower to try to clear my thoughts. As I stand there with the water dripping down my body I kept imagining a certain pair of eyes the whole time. When I thought of these eyes my heart started beating louder than the voice in my head.  I felt like I could stare at them forever. 

  I then got ready for bed and as soon I closed my eyes I whispered "I know what I need to do".