"Happy birthday my daughter, is there something you want? I'll get it for you, I heard you wanted to head to the town plaza, i decided to visit you incase you're out too long."
Yes, father has always been this way. Ever since i was a toddler he always worried about me. "Father.."
"Yes Renia?"
"I want to live in a secluded area, one where there is no marriages or nobles."
"R-renia! I..."
"Father please grant this for me, i don't want to be engaged to the crown prince anymore"
"Hah... Renia you know how hard this will weigh on our family, are you sure?"
"Yes! Please."
"Very well, i'll see what i can do..."
Letting my father know... will i regret this?
"i must warn you though, this could affect our reputation greatly, and i don't want you to be hurt because of this. Not once in any generations has there been an annulment between the royal family."
I understand all of this, though. I don't want to be forced into a life where i'll be abandoned... can't i be selfish for once?
"Yes... I understand father"
"I'll prepare a carriage for you.. please send me letters updating about yourself every 3 months"
"Yes father"
My father had hugged me tightly, almost as if he never wanted to let go "My dear Renia, when did you grow up to be like this." he mumbled, i could only pat him on the back.
"Shall we have breakfast together father, i wish to leave in the afternoon."
"That's alright with me then."
My father agreed to this so easily, in the past he'd always find cons in whichever i wanted which ended up with him being very picky over what i receive. It seems as if he understands why i wish to leave.
That day i ate with my father and then went back into my room.
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The papers, should i burn them? If anyone were to find them... would they report me for being crazy?
I grabbed the candlestick closer towards me and lifted the papers, no one was in my room to see what i was doing, it's better to take this chance and burn the letters.
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"My baby Yura, happy 10th birthday."
Yura? No, my name is Renia as of now.
"Auntie got you a present! Do you like it?"
Ah.. Aunt, Aunt Lillian. I miss you.
"Yes! I really like this auntie!! It's so cute!"
"I hope you like the doll a lot, please cherish it, it was your mothers."
"Mommys dolly? Auntie can you tell me stories about mommy again??"
"Yes, if my baby Yura wants."
"Hehe"
Yes.. Maybe there is someone who will be waiting for me in my world, how'd i forget such a precious person?
Have i spent too long here? Is there a way to go back?
If... if i died, will i make it back to my world?
Someone pulled my hand away in a tight grip, "Ah.."
"What were you doing Renia!? You almost burnt your finger!!"
"Ouch.. Cassis? What are you doing here? When did you arrive?"
"I..I arrived just now and saw Renia pulling the candlestick closer to her finger.."
"Ah, i scared you didn't i Cassis? I'm sorry, it won't happen again"
That's right, because you won't see me again.
I pat Cassis on the head and he forced a smile to me, his expression was a nervous smile but it didn't matter. All this time, as i was preparing everything I had forgotten about Cassis. His affectionate words to me, him barging in my room everyday and even today, he's always worrying about me.
Is it okay for me to want to keep everything like this?
"You should go to now Cassis, i'm worried you'll be late for your training."
"I-I'm fine, but what are these letters Renia?"
He slowly leaned over to pick one up, "DON'T-"
I slapped the paper out of his hands unconsciously, "Renia I..."
"Cassis, you should just leave, i'm not in a good mood today"
"Yes Renia.."
He walked out of my room and closed the door shut.
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(CASSIS POV)
Renia.. What was that expression on her face? Normally her eyes would glisten but now, her eyes....were empty, as if she doesn't care about anything anymore, it was different this morning!
And the papers, why were they all scattered around on the table like that? What made her worry so much to jump up with a surprised expression like that?
Ah.. I'll be late to swordsmanship practice now, i'll have to be stronger if i want to have the power to make Renia empress..
I heard she's going to the town plaza today, should i write down for her to get me something when she comes back?
A gift from Renia... i'll treasure it.
A/N: Next chapter will be focused on Renias past life and her leaving! I hope you enjoyed chapter 5!
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Renia Osmeia is gone
Romance"Please don't leave me Renia" a wonderful sight it was, a man of higher status who was clinging onto me. It was no use, since i'm the villainess of this novel he's bound to hate me in the end. "Ah it was always like this Renia, why must you be so cr...
