"W-wait jisung do you feel like I'm using you for sex or your body?" Minho asked looking at him, he felt a weird tension rising.
It felt suffocating.
"Yes basically, ever since we came here you've been just acting very weirdly. Minho if you feel scared and need a way to take it out, don't use sex as a way to take out your stress or anger." Jisung said, he was tearing up
"I'm not using sex as a way but I'm really sorry you felt that way, and as for the soulmates and love thing. If you don't like me just say it to my face please, I'll get over you. I'll let you go. Just don't lie and give me false hope it hurts" Minho replied, him tearing up as well.
"Why are you only thinking about yourself in this situation? don't you think that I might've liked you at some point or still do? Look at it from another POV perhaps, my POV. What would you do if your parents were hunting you down to literally kill you, a god damn mafia is after you to kill you as well, you try self harm but the pain doesn't hurt like before, you living with your crush and him literally not even talking to you, or asking if you're handling the stress well, moreover ditching you to hangout with his other friends." Jisung started crying.
"Can I hug you? I can't stand seeing you cry" Minho asked for consent, cause he was afraid that Jisung might feel uncomfortable.
To his surprise, Jisung went and hugged him.
Crying on his shoulder.
Minho hugged him back holding his waist and pat his head.
"For what you just said, I'm sensing jealousy and if you need a break from me you can take it, I can stay in another room till you feel fine?" Minho whispered.
"Let me cry first hyung" Jisung said, sniffling.
Minho just smiled and continued patting his head
Let's go back to a few days ago
Jisung's pov
"I shouldn't be near knives" he whispered
He kept on makes new cuts, seeing them swell then not bleed.
He wanted to see blood actually coming out of the cuts, he made so many that it didn't even hurt anymore, he had always made cuts on his hand only.
He never went far cause he was scared, all though he wanted. to he was scared.
But something inside him kept on screaming that he needs to take a step forward, actually do something more.
Cause the pain he's feeling right now, isn't enough he needs more.
It thirsts him.
Weather it be physical or emotional, he just needs it .
(this might sounds wrong and really sensitive or might trigger some, im sorry)
He wants some disease like cancer or something , so that he'll die.
He didn't wanna be in this world anymore, it was stressing him too much.
"maybe I should cut it with more intensity?" Jisung whispered, but to his surprise Felix appeared out of nowhere.
"cut what? do you need my help?" Felix asked
(Jisung is in the kitchen balcony btw)
"oh nothing" Jisung replied smiling, a sickly sweet smile
"Jisung your hand is bleeding" Felix said
'fucking hell perfect timing'
"oh" Jisung said looking at his hand
"ohk I'll stop acting innocent, jisung are you ok? I've been noticing the past few days and infact almost everyone is concerned about you, I saw the scars and bandages. Are you ok like seriously?" Felix said, with a frown
"I'm... actually not doing ok I'm actually dying inside maybe already dead I don't even have a will to live atp I don't wanna be alive anymore, I'm.. fine they're just random cuts and if I seem not as joyful it's cause of sleep you have nothing to be worried about, about the whole situation you just saw please don't tell anyone I just wanna feel something so I'm doing this." Jisung replied
"Jisung this isn't the best way to feel.. something Yk? I'm sorry that sounded way wrong..er? Than I intended" Felix said chuckling
"not the time lix" Jisung said laughing as well
"Hey at least I made you laugh anyways as I was saying GIMME THAT KNIFE BACK HOE I gotta kill someone" Felix asked, more like yelled but same thing.
"WHO DO U WANNA KILL HONEY" Jisung yelled
"a bitch known as HwAnG hYuNjIn" Felix said
"oh OHH why what'd he do?" Jisung asked, Felix started biting the inside of his cheek and smiling sarcastically
"that mother fucking bitchass said that he'd rather watch ANIME. GOD DAMN ANIME instead of seeing the fucking necklace I made FOR HIM" Felix yelled
"Ohk Felix I get that you're furious but there's no point in killing an innocent man" Jisung said, trying to calm down Felix.
Out of nowhere Hyunjin came and back hugged Felix
"Yeobo-ah I'm sorry, can I please see the necklace?" Hyunjin asked hugging felix's waist and kissed his shoulder
Felix bit his lip so that he wouldn't smile ear to ear
"no I'm not showing it apologise better I'm pissed" Felix replied
By this point Jisung just hid and got out of that.
It was too sweet for him to handle though he wants it.
He went to his and Minho's room.
"Jagi-ah u're finally here what were you u doing I heard Felix yell" Minho said as hugged Jisung
~back to the present~
"So If I remember correctly, I very clearly asked you where u went and indirectly how u were so" Minho replied smirking
"YAH WHY ARE U SMIRKING I WAS JUST CRYING YOU DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO FUCKING HUG ME" Jisung yelled, and dug his head into the crook of Minho's neck.
"I asked for consent, you jumped on me." Minho replied while his hand was wrapped around Jisung's waist.
"Don't do that EVER again ASK ME TO MY FUCKING FACE I like that better don't do all this indirectly shit" Jisung said, and Minho nodded
"ohk but I might've been using sex as a way to destress im sorry I shouldn't have done that." Minho apolozied
Jisung just smiled and gave him a peck on his head
at this point y'all might be wondering when did this happened im pretty sure, well it happened while I was focusing on all the other ships but the main one.
Mfs got some serious drama and tea to spill so im filling y'all in.
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Elysian- minsung
Fanfiction-mafia, vampire ff? -boyXboy -smut -violence -self harm -swearing -it has a a lot of hyunlix in the starting basically, it has a lot of all the ship couples in specific parts. (This book is chaotic, and I have no idea what I'm writing or what my...
