The Boy Trapped

Chapter 10

Nyxon's POV
"She probably moved on right? I should just stop trying."

Winter started licking my face.

"Okay okay. I love you too. I'm sorry. I just miss her."

I walked to my room. I put Winter on my bed then got ready to shower. I grabbed some clean clothes and brought them to my bathroom. I put them on the counter. I turned on the water in the shower. I started staring at myself in the mirror.

I look so fucking depressed.

I looked at my left wrist.

She's gonna kill me if...she ever sees me doing this.

I grabbed a razor and put the blade up to my wrist. I dragged the blade across my skin. I winced. I watched my blood flow down the drain.

I should be able to cover this with a bandage and a lot of bracelets.

Once I got the bleeding under control, I got into the shower. I was in there for about an hour. When I was done, I saw it was time for dinner.

"Alright Winnie. Let's go eat."

Winter jumped off my bed and started following me. I made some steak. I cut some up into tiny pieces and put them on a plate for her. I put it down on the floor.

"Okay. Time for you to eat."

She started eating while I started getting steak cut for me. I put whatever I wanted on the plate then sat down at the dining room table. I started eating. After she was done eating, I picked up her plate and put it in the sink. After I was done, I did the same thing. I put some dog food and water into her bowls.

I put them down in their spots. I cleaned up and put dinner away.

My life is shitty.

I picked up my phone and started scrolling through pictures and videos of us.

I hope she hasn't forgotten about me.

I hope she doesn't regret us.

At least...I told her that..I love her before...I lost her.

If she shows up at my doorstep....I'd wrap my arms around her fucking so tight.

I'd never let her go.

"Winnie? It's time to go outside."

I opened the back door and me and Winter went in the backyard. I sat down on a chair. She brought a ball over to me. I picked it up and threw it. She ran and brought it back. She sat in front of me. I started petting her.

"Thank you for keeping me company. I'd probably be dead without you."

I heard thunder and Winter ran to the back door. I picked up the ball and opened the back door. Winter ran in and hid underneath the couch. I locked the back door then put the ball in Winter's toy box.

"Hold on. Hold on. Let me give you, your medication."

I put a paper towel down on the counter. I opened her trazodone bottle and took out a pill. I cut it in half. I put one half back into the bottle and closed it. I went to the fridge and got a piece of cheese out.

"Win come here. Want cheese?"

She ran over to me. I opened the cheese packet and started ripping off small pieces. I wrapped the cheese around the pill. I tossed it in the air and she caught it.

That was painless this time.

I grabbed the other pieces of cheese and sat down on the floor. I started hand feeding her.