Rhaelle's pov
I wake in daemons arms "thank the gods you're okay what happened" I shake my head "don't act as if you care daemon. I'm nothing but a defect to you. If you don't mind I'd like to mourn my mother and brother without your presence" he tells me "you just lost so much. I won't leave you to deal with it alone" "I'm sure rhaenyra needs you. She's your favorite after all daemon. Go to get. It wouldn't be the first time I dealt with something alone. I spent 8 years blind and alone. I think I can deal with death alone as well" I scoff.
"I heard vaegon and was worried about you. You were as cold as ice and you weren't waking. Why didn't you tell me the side effects were getting more and more severe?" He asks "it's not like you're ever around daemon. When was I supposed to tell you? When I found you with my sister telling her how little I matter and that you think I'm a defect like everyone else? Or at the tourney when you tried to use the fact that no one's ever asked for or wanted my favor before and you doing so as an apology? Or the fact that you named me the queen of love and beauty out of pity" I scoff.
He tells me "nothing I did at the tourney was out of pity Rhaelle. I did it because I wanted to and you deserved it sooner. Everyone should be begging for your favor and fighting harder to name you as their queen of love and beauty" "if that is even the truth which I doubt considering you've been smiling in my face all my life I bet and swallowing the fact that you think that I'm the defect that everyone else thinks I am...I still wouldn't believe you. Go" I tell him.
"Elle" he sighs and I tell him "don't call me that. I appreciate you taking care of me though I don't get why you'd bother. Get out daemon" he stands and tells me "I didn't mean a word" I tell him seeing a maester walk in "Skoro syt gōntan vestrā ziry pār? naejot jiōragon zirȳla naejot sōpagon? līrinon? kesrio syt iksā zūgagon syt zirȳ naejot gīmigon nūmāzma īlva? ao ivestretan nyke bona kesi dōrī drējī part. Yn ao pykagon va ñuha brōzi se ñuha olvie issare se gaomagon nyke hae iā ñuhoso naejot mazverdagon zirȳla sōpagon. Geros ilas daemon"
Why did you say it then? To get her to laugh? Smile? Because you are scared for them to know about us? You told me that we will never truly part. But you spit on my name and my very being and use me as a way to make her laugh. Goodbye daemon
Daemon was the only person I had besides my mother. And now I don't have him here either. I refuse to be used as someone's punchline. "Princess please-" I cut him off "get out." He doesn't argue more and leaves and the maester asks "you're a seer" "I guess?" I ask. He says "you know these blackouts happen because you're not being open to it. Not completely. And the little bit you do see is slipping in the cracks of your mind. You need to open yourself up to it. It'll get worse and you will die princess" "it's not like anyone would miss me if I don't" I tell him.
He says "don't talk like that princess" "you're only talking to me and caring about me because viserys deemed it that you're allowed to. You don't care. The only person who truly and honestly did was cut open for a babe that ended up dead anyway. How is that fair? Being pushed through so many failed pregnancies and the husband that claims to have loved you, not caring and still pushing and killing you just to get a male like rhaenyra doesn't exist to be heir. My mother was good. And she was kind. And she kept on saying it is her duty despite it breaking her. I will talk how I like maester. There's not one person that actually loves and cares about me anymore." I huff. He tells me "you are our princess" "I couldn't tell when everyone ignored me and spit at me and called me horrible names and tripped me because I was blind" I roll my eyes. "Daemon cares about you and so does the king" I laugh "no they don't. Daemon is a fake and lied to me for years. He does not care about me in the slightest. And viserys is a joke. As a king, as a husband and as a father. I wish it was him that died and not my mother" "you cannot say that!" He snaps. "What? Talk bad about the man who's treated me worse than cattle. He should be the dead one. He had no right to make her carry out another babe knowing how the others ended! And he had no right to choose that over my mother!" I wipe my tears seeing her dead and cut open on that bed. I break and cry.
"Maybe everyone would be better off without me. I'm nothing but a defect and a bad omen anyway. I don't have a purpose here. Viserys refuses me any happiness." I say. He says "princess" "my name is Rhaelle. Not princess" I mutter. "You are a princess" he points out "your father is a king" "I do not have a father. I am not a princess. I'm just Rhaelle" I tell him de titling myself. He says "I remember when you were born princess. Such a quiet baby. So quiet we thought you to be dead. You were strong. We realized you couldn't see and it broke your fathers heart. Then rhaenyra came...he tried with you" "he hardly looks at or talks to me. He's in my life and yet I do not know him." "Want to know who took you? While your mother was resting and the king was with rhaenyra? Prince daemon. He had you for days. Your mother came to and was told of your condition and they loved you anyway." He continues. "He thinks me to be a defect just as everyone else maester." "I don't think of you that way princess" he tells me. "You indeed are strong princess. You overcame years of blindness." He tells me. I ask "can I be alone?" He nods "think about letting the prince back in." And leaves. I stay awake all night crying and fixing my room.
