right where you left me

chapter 8 - with me now

i wake up to the whispers of the wind blowing through my place. it was gentle but still dramatic enough to wake me up. lucas was still asleep. he was situated in my arms, his head laying on my chest and his arms around my torso. we both get really cold when we sleep so we tend to move closer to each other throughout the night. he looks so peaceful when he sleeps. i laid for a moment just admiring him as a person. appreciating him for all he is. then his eyes fluttered open and met mine.

"hey" he whispers.

"hey" i smile, beaming that he's awake.

"were you watching me sleep?" he rubs his eyes and pulls his head up.

"what? no!" there was a brief moment of silence and lucas stared at me trying to get an answer out "okay maybe. but you look so peaceful when you sleep!" i defended myself..pretty badly. all he could do was smile.

"it's okay, you can watch me sleep...weirdo" i rolled my eyes and he rolled over to stand up.

"noo what are you doing?" my heart dropped at the loss of contact. i've never been so attached to lucas then i have now.

"i am going to get us food and change out of these clothes" he pulled at his shirt "they are not comfortable"

"yeah i don't know why we didn't change, i'm in fucking jeans" i smiled and he closed the door to give me privacy. we're not like those other 15 year old couples that are with each other 24/7 and are so comfortable with each other. we have our moments together and then we have our moments apart. it's balance and it's what worked for us. it gives us the ability to treasure our time together when we are together.

the rest of our morning was uneventful. we ate together then talked more together and spent more time together. we then walked back to mike's house so lucas's mom could pick him up from there. but i guess we also forgot to let mike know this? so we kinda turned up at his doorstep and he had no idea what in the world was going on. but he nodded and we waited at his until mother sinclair came and took lucas home.

"max i am driving you home, no arguments" nancy unlocked her car and opened the passengers door for me to get in. nancy had insisted on driving me home. she said it was for my safety but i think she wanted to know what was going on between lucas and i.

"fine! fine. can't wait til i can get my own licence" i groaned and slouched in the passengers seat. "hey why is there r.b carved here?" nancy was clicking in her seat belt and her face went pink.

"fuck" she muttered under her breath "um not sure. probably one of mike's dumb D&D things hah" she widened her eyes at the obvious lie.

"oh yeah. so not robin buckley?" she was backing up and immediately braked at what i said.

"mayfield you say nothing. not one comment about this to anyone. robin and i have gotten pretty...close....lately. and she's been spending some time in that seat. and she got a hold of a pocket knife which i have no idea why and she carved that into my centre console and now i have to get it off before my mom notices and-"

"nance calm down." i cut off her anxious rant before it got anymore anxious and ranty "your secret is safe with me. but i don't know why it needs to be a secret. no ones going to care. i promise" i tilted my head in pity for the girl. she gets worried real quick.

"thanks" she inhaled sharply "why are we even talking about robin and i? what about you and lucas?" she glanced over at me as i spoke.

"well we just spent our time together. laughing, talking, cuddling. we just were there for each other" i got lost in my memories.

"wow max mayfield has emotions?" she made fun of me. i scoffed and rolled my eyes at her.

"yes i have emotions! especially when it comes to the people i love" i reminisced about billy. not that i loved him. i hated him. but nancy didn't need to know that.

"just don't do what you did last time and get in your own head. i love you max so i don't want to see lucas or yourself get hurt again" she spoke. that kinda stung. i didn't want to hurt lucas and i ended up hurting the both of us.

"i'll try not to. promise" i looked over to my friend and she was smiling back at me. nancy is my protector. she stood in for the role of "older sibling" when billy...stepped down. i appreciated her for that. "thanks nance"

"just doing my job"

a/n
ooft this one took a little long. i am STILL SICK??? and i've been so unmotivated to focus on my little mucas babes so it's been hard to write! but i have a good idea for a segue next chapter :)
juj xo