Surviving the Monster

*Chapter 24*

Next day,

Nandini's pov.

I opened my eyes and found myself in his arms. What am I doing in his arms? How did I end up like this? I looked at his face and he looked in peace. I slowly caressed his face and looked at how innocent he looked while asleep. My eyes went to my left hand and the ring that I was wearing.

Then I remembered his words that he spoke yesterday 'our marriage is not registered so it doesn't matter' and this is true. We are in Switzerland and so we cannot register our marriage here. We just got married in front of god not in front of law. We have to go back to India and have to register our marriage. Only then I will have rights on him.

But what if he denies to register our marriage? What if he says that he don't want to register it and he did all this for my body.

Oh god, after last night's joke, My mind is just occupied with such thoughts.

I held his arms that was around my waist and just jerked it away without any care. I just hate him. We got married to give me some sort of security but this marriage is only giving me more insecurities and one of the reasons is him. His one joke has caused so much dilemma inside me. I stood up from the bed and opened my suitcase. I took out my clothes and walked towards the bathroom. But before I can enter inside, he held my hand and pushed me to the wall.

I tried to walk away but he kept his inside on either side of my body caging me.

I looked up at him and he looked quite angry.

I - what?

Manik firmly - I should be the one asking you this Nandini? What the fuck are you doing? Do you even know how hard it is for me to fall asleep and you literally jerked my hand and woke me up from my deep slumber. Whats wrong with you?

I - I don't need to answer you.

He slammed his right hand on the wall and I immediately looked at him. He was annoyed and angry. His face came very close to mine as he said.

Manik - just because I am trying to change myself or I got married to you or I laugh with you that doesn't mean that I will take your shit. You cannot treat me or talk with me like that. If I am treating you nice then I expect you to treat me nice. I won't take such behavior again get this in your head.

I looked at other side as I don't want to talk to him.

Manik - look at me.

I slowly looked at him and he said - I need to know the problem. What is going on in your head?

I - I just can't stop thinking about your last night's joke. Our marriage is not registered so technically we are not married and you can just dump me like a garbage..

He cut me in between and said.

Manik - if I wanted to dump you then I would have already done it. It's not that hard for me. But I am not doing then it means I want this to work. I want things in between us. Your insecurities will only cause you more problem Nandini and will only give you pain.

I nodded my head in yes. I know whatever he is saying is true but my habit of over thinking is just not leaving me alone.

Manik - now are you okay or you still want to jerk off my arm?

I looked at him and now he looked less angry and annoyed.

I - I am sorry.

I apologized as I know I shouldn't have jerked his hand like this specially when he was sleeping.

Manik - it's okay.

I was still standing there as I thought he has something else to say as well but instead he just leaned towards my lips.