Surviving the Monster

*Chapter 12*

Nandini's pov.

I ran inside my bedroom and locked it. That dream was so bad. I am definitely here for his needs but I am not ready for sex. Will he go to that stage without my permission? Will he ŕápe me? No I can't let that happen. I can't let him ŕápe me. I can't livs my life in this way. Shall I die? But do I hate my life so much to die?

I got a knife which was kept in the fruit basket. I took that and sat on the bed. Should I seriously do this? I gulped my saliva thinking this. He is behaving softly with me ever since my head injury. But is this softness worth my living?

Right now he is soft but I don't know how he will behave with me later on. What if I don't allow him and he actually force himself on me?

I sighed not knowing what to do. This is definitely not I wanted my life to be. But right now it's still not worse it's just bad. Shall I actually loose hope?

Manik - Nandini don't do any madness. Don't you dare do anything with yourself.

I heard him banging the door hardly. I took that knife more near my wrist while still thinking about my decision. Before I could take a decision, Manik sir entered inside breaking the door. He saw me with knife in my hand.

He ran towards me but stopped as he saw the knife quite near to my wrist.

Manik - what's wrong Nandini? I am behaving softly with you. I have not even tortured you since a week than why the fuck do you want to die? Be a good girl and give me that knife.

I am not soo afraid of his tortures but I m afraid of that dream. What if he ŕápe me?

I - no. I won't give you this knife.

Saying this I looked at the knife and I was just going to cut myself. But Manik sir came and held my arms and because of thus sudden action, I got a little cut. He took the knife from my hand and threw that away. He hold my waist and pulled me near him. He shouted.

Manik - are you out of your mind?

I started crying and shouted.

I - yes I am out of my mind. But I can't let you ŕápe mee.

I looked at him. He was confused.

Manik- ŕápe?

I - someday you will ŕápe me.

I shouted. Manik's hold became more tight and he shouted.

Manik - What the fuck are you talking?

I - Sir one day you will take my virginity won't tou?

He brought me more near him and said.

Manik - of course I will and for this only I have brought you here.

I started crying hearing this.

I shouted - leave my hand. I said just leave my hand. I want to die.

His hold became more tight.

Manik - no I won't.

Saying this he held my wrist where I got a cut and I hissed in pain. He heard me hissing and immediately look at my wrist. He saw that cut and said in a firm tone.

Manik - see what have you done with yourself.

He said showing me my wrist.

I - I don't care. This is very small cut.

Manik - just shut the fuck up.

Saying this he started dragging me. I jerk his hand and said.

I - where are you taking me?