MERI CHANDANI

DRENCHED IN PASSION

CHANDANI'S POV

Last night was too much for me first his proposal than his revelation about real identity to me. Never in my wildest dream, I imagined him to be a criminal or to be precise a Mafia boss.  Glancing at the ring he made me wear, why everyone wants to control my life? Do my opinions, and my emotions even matter? There are a lot of things going on in my mind, but with whom should I share? My thoughts wander around or last night's conversation, I feel so emotionally drained right now.

Flashback 

''What do you mean you killed them'' I asked him taking my hand back. His face hardened as I take a step back. He stood up and took a slow step toward me like a predator. My breath hitched when he wrapped his arms around my waist roughly. I tried to push him but he didn't move even an inch.  I dont know what I am doing right now but his behaviour today was scary and I am really scared of him. Leaning to my height he caresses my face with his bruised knuckles.

''Dur Jana chati thi tum mujhse '' pushing the strands of my hair behind my ears he dangerously whispered making my body tremble. ''Dont worry baby main jane nahi dunga, tumhe mujhse koi alag nahi kar Sakta, tum bhi nahi'' he added further nibbling my earlobe. This made my heart thud loudly against my chest.

(Want to leave far away from me)

(Don't worry baby I will not let you go, no one can separate you from me, not even you) 

Gaining some strength I asked him again about his previous statement, he chuckled and pushed me lightly onto the bed and hover over me. Our faces were so close that I can feel his warm breath. His ocean-blue eyes turn a little darker as he placed one arm under my head and used his other one to hold my waist not putting his entire weight on me.  I breathe heavily feeling trapped between him and the bed.

''The man you witness today is the real me, I have a different side which I never showed to you I am not a sweetheart gentleman but a cold-blooded cruel Mafia Lord, Moon.''  he disclose everything looking straight into my eyes. I felt someone poured a bucket of cold ice water on me, from the last month I was living with a Mafia lord. But he never behaved harshly with me and never I had a doubt about his identity till today. Numbness is what I am feeling right now.

'' I am involved in many criminal activities and I won't justify myself because this mafia identity is a part of my life and I can't remove it and I don't want to get rid of this. I don't know what the future holds for us but I know one thing if I have a future it's with you, only you. Just accept me once moon I will give you anything in the world before you even ask for it. Believe me, I can do anything for you. I promise to love you, cherish you, protect you till the end of my life.''  he promised and kissed my forehead. I am feeling scared and overwhelmed at the same time

'' Mujhe kabhi kisi ki itni talab nahi hui jitni tumhari hoti, duniya me sab kuch kho sakta hu main mera naam, paisa, power par tumhe kho diya to jee nahi paunga me'' he said with some intense emotion, brushing his nose with mine. I can see the honesty in his voice and the intensity in his eyes.

(I never crave for anything as I crave for you, I can lose everything in this world, my name, money, and power but I will die if I ever lost you ''

I felt his muscles tense up as he tries to manage his weight on his elbows straining his wound. With a little hesitation, I ran my fingers across his neck and rubbed his back calming him and saying to him dont strain his body, put your weight on me and sleep, please. He smiled and muttered you care for me I didn't reply but caressed his hair, gently as he buried his face in my neck mumbling don't leave me, I don't want to lose you. Soon I felt his body loosen up, putting his whole weight on me he finally slept. I feel suffocated at first and tried to move but his grip was tight so I closed my eyes, thinking about the turn of events.