All because I liked a boy //Finney Blake

Why him...

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*DINGGG* the bell rang. I sprung up off of Finney's shoulder rubbing my eyes. I looked over at Finney who was gathering his things on his desk stuffing them into his bag.

"Sorry" I said with a raspy voice

"For?" He questioned looking at me
"For sleeping on you" I said gathering my stuff as well

"Oh, no I didn't mind...it's ok" he smiled throwing his bag over his shoulder waiting for me as I did the same.

We walked out of the class together as Mr.Johnson pulled me aside.

"Don't think I did see you sleeping on Finney during the lesson." He taunted with his wrinkled face

"Uhh" I opened my mouth looking towards Finney who was already staring at me.

"Your staying with me young lady, detention for an hour" he spoke

"Wait what?! But it's Friday!" I argued back throwing my hands in the air.

"I don't care" he said pulling my arm.

"Oh uhm I'll see you later? Gwen's going to Susie's it'll just be us" he said before I got dragged into the room

"Sounds like a plan-" I got cut off by the door slamming. I sigh. I hate this teacher. I feel bad because me now Finney has to walk by himself.

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I was bobbing my leg up and down out of anticipation waiting to be dismissed by the teacher. It was 3:59 which meant I ended in one minute. I just wanted to bust threw the door to meet up with Finney. I can't wait to see him.

I have so many ideas for today. It's going to be a good day. I mean it's Friday what can go wrong right?!

I watched as Mr. Johnson checked his watched looking up towards me with his glasses sliding down his nose.

"Your dismissed" he sighed

Fucking finally. I packed my bag zipping it half way. I pushed the door open walking out along the side walk. I decided to stop by my house first before going to finneys.

I dropped off my bag, changed my clothes and I took a 20 minute nap. By that time it was 8 pm.

I decided to head over to Finney's house with a smile on my face. I knocked on the door waiting a bit until Gwen opened the door.

Her eyes were puffy with her lips quivering and there were wet spots on her overalls. She was crying.

"Hey Gwenny are you ok? What's a matter??" I asked wiping her sad face. She was sniffling and I could tell it was hard for her to hold back the tears.

"F-Finney" she stumbled out before sobbing into my shoulder. I held her as she cried. I was scared. What happened to Finney? Is he hurt? Is he ok?

She picked her head up wiping her eyes trying to contain her breathing

"He- he got him...the grabber got him." Her voiced broke crying again.

I froze. At first I didn't want to believe it, no way. He can't be gone things were just getting good. I'm sure he's just out waiting for me or something. He can't be gone-

Eleanor stop. Stop it. Your doing it again. Your in denial, this is exactly what happens with Robin..and Vance. I need to listen to my brain.

But I couldn't.

I knew he wasn't Gone. Something was telling me he's still out there. I just need to find it. I could feel my emotions fighting each other... denial won. But I didn't think about it as denial.

I thought about it being the right thing to do.

I closed my eyes letting a tear slip down slowly against my cheek. I could feel Gwen's delicate breathing on my shoulder as her tears started to stop. She pulled away looking towards me with her red eyes.

I wiped my tears away looking at Gwen.

"I know this isn't how it works but...can you do that dream thing.?" I asked with a slight crack in my voice

She tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear.

"I've tried Eleanor and it doesn't work-" she started but I cut her off

"Just...just try, please." I said as more tears slipped down my face

She nodded tucking in her lips as she took a step back cracking the door before shutting it.

"I'll try Eleanor" she shut the door

I walked down the steps with a completely blank mind. I don't know weather to ignore it, scream or cry.

So I did all three without even realizing it. I walked along the side walk to the park with my puffy eyes and drooping face. Acting as if nothing was there in my mind. Like Vance, Robin, and Finney aren't  gone. My head spoke. The words Vance Robin and Finney gone we're going through my head.

I started breathing heavy as I got onto the monkey bars. I sat myself down onto finneys side.

I screamed. Like loudly, I think everyone in the town heard me. I was furious how could he leave me now. We were getting close and he just left!

Why does this shit always happen to me. It's almost like god is out to get me. I stood up on the bars looking up at the night sky.

"IS THIS WHAT YOU FUCKING WANTED?!" I screamed using my hands to cup around my mouth.

"CAUSE YOU WON! YOU WIN, YOU'VE PUSHED ME PAST MY BREAKING POINT!!" I screamed again scoffing.

I tried fighting but they just kept coming. Tears were now flowing like a river out of my eyes. I dropped down now onto the floor. It hurt, like badly but I didn't care.

Not at that point. My legs were tucked behind me as I covered my face with my hands sobbing. I couldn't stop it just kept coming.

But I wasn't only crying for Finney. But for Vance, Robin...my mom. Thinking bout her helped just slightly. At least Vance is with her now..he's always been I mamas boy.

I wanted to stop. I was terribly tired and just wanted to crash on my bed. But I was to lazy to get up. I felt heavy. I couldn't get up. I layed on the wood chips  thinking to myself. What has Finney done to deserve this...why him?

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