Without A Parachute. Bakudeku.

Morning talk

*trigger warning: meantion off suicide attemt*

Izuku:

When i woke up, i was in my bed in my room at home. The sun was shining through the windows. I streched and sat up. When i saw Kacchan sleeping on my little couch and Shinso sleeping in my armchair the memories from last night hit me. 'They must be really angry at me. Especcially Kacchan otherwise he woldend be here. He would probaly shout at me.' I thought. 'I wondered if they found my letter, i hope not, it was all my feelings and i know he dosent like me back. It would hurt if he rejected me' while i was thinking i looked down at my hands so i failed to notice Kacchan waiking up. "Good morning nerd. You okey?" Kacchans morning voice rang through the room, starled me. My head shut up towards him. "M-morning. Ka-Kacchan" i stammed. I looked him in the eyes. His gaze was soft for once. An expression i havent seen sins we were kids. Before he got his quirk. He got up from the couch and came towards me, he sat at the edge off the bed facing me. "Why did you do it?" He asked. "I...." i dident know how to say it. "I just thought that the world would be better without me. I am a waist off space." I said. His hand closed around the collar off my shirt. "Dont ever fucking say that" he hissed. "Sorry" was all i said. He saigned to calmed down. "What are you even doing here?" I asked. "Me and Brainwash over there made a deal that we never would leave you alone again. So you wont get the change to try that again" he said. "Sorry to ask Kacchan, but why do you care? You hate me, right? i mean we havent talked sins. well sins we were kids." i said confussed. "Stupid Deku. I dont hate you. I hate the thing you do to me" he said with a little bluch. My eyes widden. Kacchan was bluching. He looked behind him to see if Shinso still was asleep as he was. "I hate that you make me feel weak. Scarred. Whenever i am near you i feel that i am not strong enough." My eyes widend at his words. "But you bullied me back when i got adopted." I said. "It wasent my meaning that it would go as far as it did. I just wanted you to give up on that stupid dream you had about becomming a hero. You would get killed the first day. I could not let that happen. I dident want to live in a world without you" he said with red cheeks. This is the first time of my knowing that Kacchan had told anybody his deppest fellings. Normally he would puch every felling awey.
"Why are you telling me this?" I asked.
He looked me in the eyes as if the answere were there and then he got up and went over to the couch he had sleept on, took his jacket and pulled my notebook out off an inner pocket. My eyes widdend when i saw it, it was the one from the roof. "I went up after your shoes and found this. I read your letter. Deku off all the things a bully have told you, this was the one you desicided to listen to." He said and came back to me. "Please dont show it to anyone. I felt so alone." i said, hopping he istent pittying me. "you are not alone Deku, you have a new family, two dads and a brother that all are werry concerned for you, you have me and my old hag, sometimes i think she is regretting that se dident got to adopt you herself, she was going to you know but these two guyes came first" he said i nodded a little "sorry Kacchan" i said. He ruffled my hair, "it ended good so i dont hold a grutch, but i wont let you do it agian. Now i will go use the bathroom" he said as he got up and made his wey out the room.

Not even two minuts later papa used his quirk to wake the whole house by shouting "BREAKFEAST IN FIVE" i signed, this was so normal for him. Shinso streghed and woke up. Papas shouting dosent startle us anymore, we are pretty much costumed to it by now. But Kacchan came back into the room looking anyoid. "is he alweys shouting like that." he asked "pretty much" Shinso said, "Godmorning Zuku" he said. "morning Thosi" i answered without meeting his eyes. "im not mad at you" he said, that made me look up. "i will go change see you two at the table" he said as he left my room. Kacchan looked at me when Shinso had shut the door after him. "come on nerd, get the fuck up" he said, i smiled at him "there is my old Kacchan" i said. He just "tsk" and made his wey over to my dresser and picked some close out that he threw at me. "get changed nerd" he said i giggled a little. "oi nerd, just know i ment everything i told you" he said as he turned his back to me as he roumed through a bag beside my couch. I stared at him for at minut before i startet to change, i was sure i had dreamt that soft deep talk we had. It was so unlike him.

Breakfeast was a silent affair. Nobody said anything, i didnet eat much, just sat there picking at my food. Then i got tired off this odd silens i stood up. "dad, papa, i am really sorry about what i did, please dont be mad, i cant take this sillent tratment" i said. "sit down problem child, we have a lot to talk about, we just want to get breakfeast overwith first" dad said, not in a mad og pissed voice, but his normal tired one. I dident know what to say so i just sat back down.