Without A Parachute. Bakudeku.

They are gonna kill me

*trigger warning: cutting*

Its been a month since i started dating Kacchan. Everything is going well. Our relationship is growing, im werry happy. My sessions with the psychologist is going well, she is pleased with my progress. Im on new pills for my depression. She have given me someting to work with then im have suicidal thoughts and until now its working.

Im sitting at my desk in our room and doing homework. Shinso is sitting at his also doing homework. My thoughts are running wild again for the fourth time today. I started to list all the good things in my life to get myself out off it. Then i got a papercut and started bleding a little. I just sat there complety still, looking at my finger. Even my thoughts stoped for a second. 'Maybe i dont have to kill myself, maybe its enough to just hurt a little.' I thought, then i got up from my chair and started heading for the bathroom. Shinso dident even look up from his desk when he asked. "Where are you going?" "I need to use the bathroom" i said. Its become normal for everyone asking me where im going every time i got up. They are overprotective but its fine with me.

I locked the door after me and went to the sink, i knew Shinso have some shaving equipment, razor blades somewere in here. I was sure to not roum around to much, so i would not make to much noise. When i found them i took one out, looking at it. 'Should i sterilias it first? I dont have anything to do it with' i thought and shugged. I pulled my sleeve up. 'I need to do it a place i can hide. They wont be happy about this' i thought as i put the blade against the skin un my upper arm. In one quick movement i made a little cut. I looked at it in the mirror. Saw the blood rushing down my arm for a minut 'god it hurts, but it stoped the thought.' I was werry pleased and washed the razor before i washed the blood off my arm. I put a litlle bandage on it and rolled my sleeve back down, before i put the razor back in its place. I flusshed the toilet as if i was using it and made my wey back to my desk, with new energy and a little smile. 'Note to myself, buy my own razors' i thought as i started back up on my homewoork, trying to finish it quickly.

When i was done i looked at Shinso, he was still going at it. "Toshi?" i said as i got up. "hmm" he answered. "im going to see if Kacchan is done, so we can hang out" i said as i was on my wey to the door. "fine, have fun." he said just before i closed the door behind me. It turned out that Kacchan was not even near done. So i went to chek on kaminari. Off course that goofball had time. He was not even started yet and was not planning on it before after dinner, so i was hanging out with him. We desided to go see how much electircity he could sent through his body without frying his brain.

We snok into the buldings basement and he easily found the right place. He put his hands on our buildings powerline and used his quirk to control the electisity, he dident frye his brain but the power in the building went out. We looked at each other in the light off our flashlight. "Run" we both said. When we came out, we snug back into the dorm, both trying not to laugh, when we were trying to get to his room. Without getting cut by the other students, that was trying to figur out what was happening. When he closed his door behind him we both started laughing hysterical, but came to a sudden hold when the light came back and we saw that we wasent alone in the room. In the middel off Kaminaris room stood Kacchan with his arms crossed, staring at us. "hey Kacchan" i said acting innocent. "what are you doing here Bakugo" Kaminari asked confussed. "fucking Dunce face. Use your brian. When the light went out i could see through my window that the other dorms had light. And then i knew it had something to do with you, the last time we lost power was when you put a fork into the toaster" he said. When he looked at me. "and you. I am glad to finally hear a real laugher from you, but i fucking didnet expect to find you here" he said but i could easily tell, by his tone that he wasent mad at me. "Dunce face, stop fucking corrups MY cinnemon roll" Kacchan said to Kaminari. "sorry Bakugo, we were just having fun" Kaminari said. "yeah Kacchan, it was a experiment for my jurnal, to see if he could control the buildings power without frying his brain" i said, trying to save Kaminari from Kacchan. Before Kacchan could answere, there was a knock on the door, Kaminari opened it to find Shinso.

"did you put a fork in the toaster again?" he asked Kaminari. "no, you guys told me to never do it again, so no" Kaminari said. Kacchan signed. "these to idiots were just playing in the bacement with the buildings powerline." Kacchan said and put his arms around my waist. I leaned my back agains him. "Zuku you told me you were going to Bakugo" Shinso signed. "i did, he was busy with his assignment, so i went to hang out with Kaminari, learning more about his quirk" i said with a smile. Shinso was not happy. "dont be to hard on them" Kacchan said. "Dunce face did manage to get the first senserily real laugher out off Deku sins the incident." Kacchan said, shocking Shinso. He just staired at me. "Really?" He asked. I nodded. Kaminari jumped exitedly. "Lets celebrate that" he said fistbumbing the air. "You are just exited right now becouse you got a lot off volts through you" i said. "Exactly" he said. "I think its better you start on your assignment for tomorow" i said. He dident answere just pulled his phone out off his pocket. "Its worth celebrating Zuku. Its a mayor step" Shinso said. "Fine." I said.