Without A Parachute. Bakudeku.

Depressed and suicidal

*trigger warning: meantion off depression and suicide*

After breakfeast, dad told us to go into the living room. I followed Shinso with Kacchan right behind me. We sat down at the couch. I loocked my gaze at the carbet. When my dads were done cleaning the kitchen, they came into the living room to us, and sat down in a couple of armchairs near the couch. "So problem child tell us what last night was all about" dad said. I dident look up but signed and started to talk. Knowing that if i dont say anything Shinso and Kacchan would. "My depression got a hold on me" i said. "So you desidede to jump out from the school building?" He asked concerend. I nodded. "I... this wasent...." i took a deep breath before i told them my biggest secret, no one know, not event Shinso. "I have been close before. The first time my mom called me just before i did it." I said before continuing. "I have been up there a couple off times since then. So close to but couldend" i said while feeling the tears run down my face. "Izuku, the first step towards getting better is to tell someone whats going on. I am really glad that you are telling us" dad says. I realised that Kacchan have been holding my hand sins i mentioned my mom. "What are we going to do?" Shinso asked while putting his arm around my shoulders, trying to comfort me. "I am going to talk with Nezu. You three stay here with Yamada today. And then i get back, we will call your doctor to get some other medication" he said before leaving. Papa got up "i will be in the garden, just shout if you need me" he said before he got up and went outside. I finally looked up at Shinso. "I made them sad" i said. "They are afraid Izuku. They dont want to lose you, they are trying to help you but they are afraid of making it worse by talking to much about it" Shinso said. I nodded my head. I know they have been though something similar with him. Shinso took a overdose of pills the first night he was here. He thought that this was yet another temporary home. But dad and papa helpt him get through it.
He was completly over it, then they got me. Then i told Shinso about my depression, he told them and i got put on medication. I was lost in thoughts, when i felt Kacchan let go off my hand, i looked up at him. "Did you just say that last night wasent your first attemt" he said, he sounded angry. "It wasent. The first time was two weeks before my mom died. The night she died i was ready to try again buy Thosi woldend let me go for a walk alone. And remeber the day after you two got your letters? Shinso found me on the old playground, i just knew that you got in Kacchan, i was happy for you, i had given up my dream but it still hurt that you got in and i dident even get to try." I said he looked on the verge off tears so he looked awey from me. I could feel Shinsos intense gaze on me so i looked back at him. "Zuku. I am never letting you out alone again. Understand" he said through gritted teeth. I nodded and looked down, not wanting to look him in the eyes. I saw his hands. There was some bruses on his knuckles, my eyes made it to Kacchans hands he also had a brush. "Guys" i asked. "What were you doing last night before? You both have bruces on you knuckles" i said forgetting about my situation. "We were beating up that copycat" Kacchan said. I looked up at him suprised. "You beat up Monoma? Why" "Bakugo dident like that he cheated on you so the whole squard ended up going down to the cafe and beat him when you called Bakugo" Shinso told me. I looked at him in shock. "I... i dident call him" i said and looked at Kacchan. "I think you called me by accident when you send me that text. I heard you sing and knew something was wrong" i nodded. I went quiet while Shinso and Kacchan laughed about Monomas face when they came to beat him up.

When dad came back he had the rest off the bakusquard with him. Now all that were there last night was pressent. Papa came back from the garden and everyone sat down. "Izuku. I had talked with Nezu  and we came to an agrement. I invited the rest that was there last night, becouse i think they have to know that you are at least okey physical." He said. I nodded. "You have two options. You could set school on hold and we can get you tratment. That means you will be admitted to a qsyk ward until you are better. Or you will be changed into class 2-A but still study general. The morning classes are the same, only the afternon classes are diffrent. When in different classes you ether study alone beside a teacher, or helping the said teacher with the class. And get proper treatment with new pills and a sqykologist" He explained i gave it some though. "Can i think over it for today?" I asked. Dad nodded. "Now you 7 behave we are going grosary shopping. Shinso you are in charge, keep an eye on him" dad say as they left. I looked at Shinso. "I am not a child anymore, why are you in charge." I pauted. "Well there are a lot off reasons. Maybe becouse that i am older when you, you know you are the yongest off us 7 as well and maybe becouse we cant trust you to be in charge right now, not after yesterday." He said. "Unfair" i grossed my arms.