Dear My Lover

May 6th, 2015

Dear My Lover,

Over the past month a whole lot has been going on. I have so much to tell you. That includes things tht happened in my life and how I feel about our relationship. I have good things and bad things to say to you. If only the bad news was easy to say.

I think of dying all the time. But ive got you to take my side. I still hope so. My life is in shambles when your not with me, when we dont talk, when we are completely disconected. I feel like were two lovers locked out of love.

I really do miss you so much. At night my mind overflows with thoughts of you and I lay in tears in bed all night. I wish i could sleep next to you everynight. You know how scared I am of things so while im sleeping you would hold me and protect me from the lonley monsters that hide within the dark. You always tell me you would protect me.

I wish it was the future we planned together right now. Moving to Florida or California, starting a new life, being in love and being with eachother. Our kids we planned on having. If we dont have a future together, I just wish I could hear your voice once more. But if I could meet you, or even see you for a split second only once in my life, id die happy im sure.

My love, I would do anything for you. I would pay for you and do everything you need and want me to do. In fact I would be glad if I could do that for you. I appreciate everything you do for me, even say you will do for me in our future that I really hope happens. I just want you to come back to me.

Love, Heavenly