Dear my lover,
I may not be crying but my heart is flooded with tears. you dont know how much this hurts. To know that im not the only girl that's with you. It hurts so much but I love you.
Loving you is a habit of my heart. I cant say no. Theres no way in hell I would ever choose to leave you. I have so much love for you.
My mom is very concerned about me cutting. She humiliated me badly today. She made me strip down to look for new scars. Ugh, I hate everything.
When people ask about my scars I say that I miss my sister. But really, theyre the aftermath of the pain you caused on me.
Today Ive relized something. This is all just a dream. You, me, Brandon, my feelings, my scars, its all just a bad dream. I really mean that. I know that this is reality, but I believe this is all a dream, or im in a coma or something.
All I want to do is see you in real life, to talk to you. Im still unsure about talking to you about what your doing to me. I think its better off unsaid but either way, if you are cheating on me or not, i bet youd say no.
I need you to save me. Save me from my broken heart. I feel like im gunna die every second Im awake because im suffering too bad.
I just wish I had you right now. All to myself. With me.
Love, Heavenly
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Dear My Lover
RomanceThese are actual diary entries I have written and every day I will be posting a new one everyday. These are to my long distance boyfriend that I havent talked to since Easter. This has started May fourth.
