While Tyra was being like a five year old jumping on my bed and singing " I'm gonna give you a makeover" over and over .
I was thinking to myself what the actual fuck , am I really gonna go though with this? Or nah ?.
I never realized that she came with a massive bag and in the bag was so much clothes and she brought like her whole makeup set. Damn she came prepared .
I really didn't wanna do this but all I could think of was what if jake finally sees me ? .
I told her I'd do it.
" let's start with that hair of yours it's so black. Black is not a nice colour let's make you look more like a girl and less like a zombie " she said .
" just so you know im not doing this for you , I'm doing it for jake " I said to her , feeling very confident .
" yeah after I'm done with you he'll be begging to get a piece of you " she said with this naughty look on her face .
She's not a virgin anymore , which is totes fine because she's been with the same guy for over a year now. Austin is his name his 20 this year and quiet a hottie I might add.
As for me , never even had my first kiss.
Shocking right ?
I know you're probably thinking what a weirdo, fucken eighteen year old that hasn't even had her first kiss yet.
But I can explain , I almost had my first kiss in fifth grade . The whole class was playing truth or dare and believe it or not jake and I were in the same class.
They dared jake to kiss me , but I wasn't playing the game with them I was sitting at the back of the class reading my book . I looked up and saw everyone staring at me . Jake smiled at me. Oh. My. God.
I almost died that smile though one word. GORGEOUS .
He started walking towards me and my tummy was feeling all weird everyone was staring , had their eyes glued on us.
He was at my desk now. Fuck I think I'm going to be sick. He turned around and nodded then looked at me and leaned in. And the worst fucking thing happened next.
I. Thew. Up.
But luckily not on him it was on my desk was still freakkn disgusting .
He looked at me disgusted and turned around and told everyone he would rather lick the floor than kiss me . And guess what?
He did !
I was so ashamed.
So thinking about sex was the last on my list. I just want him to notice me.
Baby steps.
Tyra took out a box of hair dye .
" what the hell Tyra? "
" trust me " she said and then winked at me .
We went into the bathroom and I let her do her thang.
When we came out I was brunette.
Brunette I said.
What the fuck , it's like the worst colour ever pink would've been better than this shit.
She seems to think I look amazing , now I know what to get her for her birthday.
Pair of glasses.
I guess it didn't look that bad. It took time to get used to , because I'm not used to something that's not black.
But that's not all she did.
She plucked my eyebrows.
Hurts like hell.
She painted my nails , this weird light pink . She even painted my toe nails .
She cut my hair , it used to sit under my bra now it's shoulder length .
She took a outfit out for me.
A really really girly one I might add.
When you look at it , you automatically think of bunny rabbits and unicorns.
Which was weird.
She told me that she'll come and pick me up before school because she wants to do my makeup and she wants to do my hair.
I'm so clueless like she was talking about she's going to put mascara on and I nodded like I knew what she was talking about but in my head I was like .
Are you talking English? .
She left at 6.
And five minutes later mother walks in.
"Lexi!! " mother shouted from downstairs, I rain from my room downstairs.
" Yes mother? " I said nervously
" I've been gone for 1 day and this is how this place looks? . " mother says and hasn't even looked at me.
I corrected her " actually you've been gone for a week " I said.
She looked at me . Her eyes went big. She had this surprised look on her face.
" something different about you " she said.
I kept quiet.
She stared at me.
And then her face changed as if she got bored of looking at me so she just shrugged . " you better clean up and put your drunk of a father in the guest room because his stinking up the house. I'm going to shower when I get out it better be clean." .
" yes mother. "
She went upstairs.
She didn't even notice.
My hair is cut and dyed she didn't even notice .
World's best mother hey.
She got out of the shower and the place was clean. Father was in the guest room. She said eight words to me ." I'm going back to work see you whenever " she said and slammed the front door behind her.
Mother was gone will probably see her in a week .
I realized I had nothing to eat whole day. I made me tea and cereal .
Then went to bed.
