The bell rang for lunch .
And I told tyra just to sit with me for today.
I got the usual , my Mac and cheese with my chocolate chip muffin and my ice tea. I know right? Delightful.
As I was getting my food , I noticed how everyone was looking at me , I even heard two guy's conversation . The one guy Josh asked " whoa look at the new girl" and the other guy Kurt said " no dude it's the weirdo in my English class , I really don't know what happened to her but it's like she was ugly and now she's super hot . Well I think, she was ugly never really looked at her. Ever. "
Both of them were in the football team .
Jocks. Jocks were talking about me?
As in ME ? .
I must be dreaming someone pinch me.
" tyra pinch me! ".
And she really pinched me. Hard.
" okay I was joking but thank you! " I said sarcastically .
We were on our way to our table when two girls came to us.
Amber and Abi.
The forth and fifth most popular girls in the school after lolla and her two dogs.
Jasmine and Jamie.
" lexi? Right? " Abi asked .
" ye-yeah"
" oh my gosh I LOVE what you did to your hair! It's totes adorbs " said abi
" you should like totes sit with us " said amber.
" yeah we'll do that " said tyra. She pulled my arm and we walked to their table.
" totes adorbs? " I whispered to tyra
She giggled" it means totally adorable ".
I looked at her weird and stared laughing.
We sat by their table from what I've heard they don't let people normally sit here.
They're always together. Amber and Abi
are kinda like the power puff girls except there's only two of them .
They couldn't stop giving me compliments. Telling me how great I looked. Oh but I couldn't stop smiling.
I loved this feeling.
I had English now.
With jake I might add.
I'm going to smile at him. For the first time ever.
As I got into class , once again everyone was looking at me .
I looked for Jake. Found him.
He was looking at me.
Okay here we go. 1 2 3 smile!!
I smiled at him but a soft smile.
He looked at me and then looked away.
I heard lolla ask " did she just smile at you" "yeah" Jake said .
And they both started laughing.
They laughed in my face like who does that? .
Mean people that's who.
I took my seat at the back.
Tyra came to my desk and said " Oh. My. God , Chandler , couldn't keep his eyes off you. He was literally watching your every move and when we saw me see him he looked away"
Jakes best friend was staring at me ?
Chandler? .
That was just weird.
But his hot so it's fine.
The rest of the day was a blur.
When I got home I was so exhausted and I don't even know why.
I took a really , really long nap.
Father woke me up by screaming at me and knocking against my door with his bottle of alcohol.
"wake up ! I'm fucking hungry "
I woke up before I get thrown with alcohol again.
I made him toast that's all.
He seemed to be happy with that cause he only took one bite and then he passed out .
It's 12am I took a really long bath and went to bed.
In bed I was over thinking everything.
Maybe this make over was a shit idea?
Maybe I should just go back to the old me? .
Maybe I should maybe I shouldn't.
I'm gonna sleep on it and see how I feel in the morning.
