Mothers been my role model since forever .
When I was little we would watch all these videos about how doctors would operate on their patients .
I woke up .
Checked the time and it was 10 .
Shit we slept right through the night .
And we're late for school .
And then I thought to myself ? Why even bother . I've had a long night. Let's stat at home today and drown my sorrows in alcohol .
Yep that sounds like a beautiful idea .
"Ty , what the hell dude you can't sleep forever !"
" five more minutes"
I went down stairs got two bottles of vodka , milk and oreos .
Weird combination .
Anyway I was craving .
I went upstairs and ty was finally awake
" lex we need to get done !"
"Nah we not going to school . we had a long night . "
" whoa someone's a rebel . I like I like "
We both started laughing .
I took the bottles and put it on my bed and said " one for me , one for you " .
Ty looked at me so surprised .
" or are you a chicken . puk puuuk "
" no never ! You're on! "
We took our first sip . ahh this is good .
" you know , I don't know what I'm gonna do bc of mother "
" well she's in really bad shape so prepare for the worst . that's the only way "
" and with that said here goes nothing ."
I just drank so much of the bottle . needed to get things off my mind ASAP .
" whoa slow down there "
I just shook my head .
I put the music really really loud .
In a really drunk voice I started singing .
" I wanna go back , wanna go back . can we go back , can we go back mmmmmmm mmmmm how we did it at a one night stand! Mmmm do it again! "
Ty was just laughing .
Today I'm letting loose .
Tired of being so uptight all the time .
This feeling of being free is the best feeling ever .
I felt hungry so I stuffed my face with oreos .
I heard the door bell ring .
"I'll get it " ty screamed .
I was on my bed eating oreos and singing .
When I heard the door open .
It was Chandler .
And Austin .
The fuck are they doing here .
Chandler came to sit on the bed and I looked at him . and smiled . he laughed cos I had oreo in my teeth .
He kissed me .
" are you okay ? "
" iiiiim beautiful "
" yes you are , but how you feeling about your mother ? "
" well I don't care bc she was never there for me . but that's none of my business !"
"Whoa babe"
My other favourite song came on
"I can't feel my face when I'm with you but I love it" I sang .
He just watched me.
I couldn't care.
He leaned in and so did I but then blacked out .
I passed out .
That's what I get for wanting to drink so much .
Who cares it was beautiful .
