yours [dnf] -discontinued-

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"you'll see"

{timeskip till the day before school}

(nobody's pov)

school. the thought of a new school just freaks me out. what if no one likes me? what if i don't get along with anyone? what if i get bullied for being gay? a whole new experience is waiting for me and i can't do anything about it. it's alright, i have karl.. right..?

he rubs his eyes to snap out of his thoughts and grabs his airpods from his bedside table

he opens spotify and clicks shuffle

star shopping - lil peep

he stares at the ground while listening to the lyrics trying not to think about the stress of moving schools

karl is gonna be with me

it's okay

karl has my back

karl won't leave

i know that

wait right here
i'll be back in the morning
i know that i'm not that important to you but to me girl you're so much more than gorgeous
so much more than perfect

will i be feeling that way if i get a crush on anyone? maybe that popular guy karl was talking about.. no..

right now i know that i'm not really with it
but if you give me some time i could work on it
give me some time while i work on it

relatable lyrics. very fucking relatable.
except i don't think i'll ever get better.

losin your patience and girl, i don't blame you
the earth's in rotation you're waiting for me
look at my face when i fuck on your waist
cause we only have one conversation a week
that's why your friends always hatin on me

will i ever be loved?

fuck em though, i did this all by myself
matter of fact i ain't ever asked no one for help
and that's why i don't pick up my phone when it rings.

he underlined those lyrics in his head. cuz he relates to them.

his thoughts overflow in his head. he glances at the sharpener blade lying on the ground under his desk. no. not right now. i can do this. you can do this george. im one month clean i can't let that go to waste.

fuck it.

he scooted over to his desk and picked up the blade, still listening carefully to the lyrics.

this music's the only thing keeping
me in peace when i'm falling to pieces

he looked at his wrist and slowly bringing the blade up to it.

look at the sky tonight, all of the stars have a reason

one cut.

a reason to shine, a reason like mine, and i'm falling to pieces

another cut.

look at the sky tonight, all of the stars have a reason.

and another.

he looked at the blood dripping down his hand fuck

he took his airpods out and slowly opened the door and went to the bathroom, making sure he didn't disturb his mom.

he washed his wrists off with water and good god, it burns.

he slipped his hoodie sleeve back down and walked out of the bathroom, with tears still in his eyes.

school is tomorrow.

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A/N
angst 🤭