RED WOLF

Moving On

They say that time heals all, but even after six months after they where gone I was still mourning them, my wolf was still hurting. I had stayed in my bed for the first couple of weeks crying for the lost of what was mine. I knew that even when I told Zion, I didn't want to see them again, that when I went up to visit my father I would see them. I wonder if they would feel connected to me. I wonder what Zion would tell them about me.

We had told my father and my other brothers that because of the sudden death's I couldn't take it and the doctor had them take the pups right away. They said that they where buried right away for my sake. Daddy didn't like that, but I told him that how I wanted it. Daddy had a small funeral for them, I didn't go. I couldn't. Lying to my dad was one thing but going to a fake funeral I just could not do. Daddy stayed with me for a mouth than he had to go back home. I cried like a little girl, wanting him to stay with me. He hugged me bye and told me again that everything happens for a reason.

I had yet to go back to work, keeping my mind busy by cleaning the house or grocery shopping. If I just set down I would fall apart so I kept going finding things to do. Ran said that I needed to slow down or I was going to over do it. But I had to do something, something so I wouldn't think.

I had kept the phone that Zion had gave me thinking that he would call to let me know how they where doing. But he had not called, he had cut off all ties with me. It was for the best. This is what I wanted is it not, it is what I asked for.

I set in the floor of our apartment watching a rerun of Charmed. Not really paying attention to what was going on. My mind was on other things.

"Reese" Ranson says as he comes in the door

I look up at him

"Yes"

"Have you been setting here all day" he asked

"Yes"

"Get up go get dressed we're going out" he says

I looked at him, it was the first time he had giving me a direct order.

"I don't feel like going out"

"Get up Reese now we're going out" he snips

Wow this is a new him I never saw

"N.O.W" he pronounced

My eyes are big as I get to my feet

"O. OK what you want me to wear"

"A dress, we're going to eat"

"OK"

I head back to the bedroom, going though our closet I found a little red dress that came to my thighs. Going to the bathroom, I start my shower, after I shower and dress I'm standing in front of the mirror fixing my hair.

"You're beautiful" Ran says from the doorway

"Thank you"

"I didn't mean to snip at you"

I turn to him and smiled

"Yes you did, because you knew that was the only way to get me going"

He smiles stepping toward me

"Are you ready"

"Yes"

We head out, it is quiet on the ride to the restaurant. He takes me to a place called Je t'aime. Its a little french restaurant, the Hostes takes us to our table. Than leaves us to look over the menu.

"Do you know what you want" I ask him

"Yes I do, you"

"No"