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10: Evergreen

He don't love
Me no more
He don't love
He don't love
Me no more

As Emerson sits in the bar, with the Latin gang watching her closely, she finally gets to grieve her way. It's been a week since the funeral of Delilah Carter, and she can't bare to do anything but cry in vain.

Evergreen, he controls me
Was there something wrong with my body?
Am I not what you wanted, babe?
If I ever tried, if I ever tried
I would

For Erin, it's been hard watching her daughter act out. She's used to her daughter laughing and being joyful. But now, it's like everything has just been sucked out of her. "Why her? Why the love of my fucking life?!! Why!!"

Evergreen, he tears me to pieces
(Evergreen) Doesn't even have to try

Listening to the one song that was hers and Lilahs, the one thing that no one could take away from them, Delilah continues to sway to the music.

She promised Delilah that if anything was to happen to her, she would move on, with time. But she didn't mean it. She would tell Delilah her favorite pet was a giraffe if it made the brunette happy. "I love you sooooo much Lilah"

She don't
Know you like me
She could never love you more
More than me
But sometimes I pray that you fall in love
I've cried, I've cried so much
For you, baby

When this part of the song came, Delilah always teared up. Now, she completely sobs. "I don't want to do this without you! It's not fair!!" Grabbing another bottle of Tennessee whiskey, Emerson continues to listen to their song.

Evergreen, he tears me to pieces
(Evergreen) Doesn't even have to try
(Evergreen)

"I will forever love you, Delilah, I will always hold a place in my heart for you." Every time she spoke, Emerson looked to the roof of the bar, as if it was her gateway ticket to talking to her one and only.

It was hard for most of the gang members to watch their favorite Voight mourn. And no one ever thought it would be to Delilah Carter. They always thought the two would make it to old age with lots of grandkids. "Why did you leave me here? I'm incomplete without you! Lost, and in pain. Why Lilah? Why!!"

You know you really made me hate myself
Had to stop before I break myself
Shoulda broke it off to date myself
You didn't deserve me at all
At all, at all

Not noticing her godmother and Elliot Stabler walking into the bar, Emerson continues to sway. "Emerson Camille Carter, MD. That's how this was supposed to go. I promised I wouldn't... take another last name but yours."

Swaying and noticing her family at the door, "Leave me, I don't need your coddling, I need to let it all out! I'm fine where I am!"

As Elliot made the first move, "No! Get back! Leave me the hell alone! None of you can help me! Stop it!" Holding her in his embrace, Emerson crumbles into the one man she thought she'd never see again. "I want her back! My heart hurts so damn bad! Most days I feel like I can't breathe...My heart stings...oh my god!"

Feeling her godmother come to her other side, And Kelly take the liquor out of her hand, and replace it with his, Emerson squeezes his hand back. "We're not leaving you, we'll be flies on the wall until you're ready to go."

As the three go back to the corner booth, it was then that she realized they were there the whole time. Seeing her grandparents, Hermann, and Boden here as well, Emerson acts like they are just regular people she doesn't know.

One last time
I see, (Ever) Evergreen
Please don't come home to me
Sweet Evergreen
He don't love
Me no more

Putting the bottle back to her mouth, "turn it up a little bit" swaying, she starts to think about all the trips and memories they made. Their first time at the waterfall, or in Hawaii, how she had given her a promise ring a year before, and her class ring right before this trip.

Looking directly towards her godmother, "I wanna go back to New, York, Tonight."

He don't love
Me no more
He don't love
He don't love
Me no more

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Getting off the plane, with just her godmother, Emerson heads to her New York home. Erin wanted to come so badly, but Emerson couldn't do anything with her mom or Jay around her.

Gabby understood that she needed some space, but she wouldn't allow her to drink any more than she already had.

After her night of drinking all types of liquor, Emerson slept at the home of Kelly Severide. For some odd reason, she only wanted to be around the blue-eyed man. While he slept on the couch, she slept on the floor and held his hand the whole night.

Emerson hasn't slept in a bed since she shared one with Delilah

"I'm sleeping in a guest room Gabby, I can't sleep in my room knowing her stuff is there and her smell...not tonight" walking to the guest room no one uses, Emerson takes a shower and makes a pallet on the floor.

She's not ready to get her life together, not when it's this deep in shambles

Calling the phone of Jay Halstead, Emerson waits until after he answers to say anything. I just wanted to call and tell you and mom goodnight; and that I love you both. Even though you barely know me or that my mom had a kid weeks ago, you've been the only dad I could ever say I've had. I really do love you, Jay. I'll call you guys after school tomorrow."

Ending the call before either her mom or Jay could respond, Emerson places her phone in do not disturb and gets comfortable on the floor. "Night Tia Gabby. Thank you for dropping everything and being here with me"

"That's what families for kid"