I have been walking for only God knows how long.There is no habit you will ever value so much as that of walking far without fatigue.There was no where to go but every where to go.Its been exactly four days since i heard from him.Four days since my heart warmed up.But for those four days all i did was think of him.Its like i was trapped in this fantasy of what we could have and what i longed for, what i felt was missing in my life.I was unable to stop thinking about him, like i most had anxious attachment.My obsessive disorder towards Justin was seriously getting out of hand.
But i know exactly what i need for a self distraction.My best friend Riri has been on this compulsive non stop talking about his cousin who just moved in with them.He is having a party which Riri for some reasons managed to bribe me to go as her plus one.I need to go get loose a little and release some tension.Maybe me and him wasn't meant to happen.
But for now i needed some sleep.I haven't slept peacefully for a while and that is not entirely Justin's fault.He probably is having the best days of his life and am here stuck waiting for Messiah to come and save me.
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"Am home!!!"I shouted as i closed the door."Anyone?!!!"No response.Glad that i was home alone and Riri will be here picking me for the party in the next three hours i had time to rest and clear my thoughts.Once i reached my room, I plugged my Ipod into the little portable speakers that i had letting the sound of music fill the room as i tried to relax.I then flopped back at my bed and then closed my eyes.My shoulders were just starting to loosen some of the tension when i had a bang at my bedroom window.No way was i letting any human being ruin this moment for me.A moment i have been longing for since my alarm went up in the morning.So i hope who ever it is would just give up and go back to their miserable life.But of course not, the noise went on for sometime.I rolled my eyes ready to pounce on who ever was interrupting my moment.
"Shit Sel!For a moment there i thought you were dead!What the hell took you so long."Taylor growled hanging on my window box as if her life depended on it.
"Whaaaaat the F***!!!Taylor,what are you doing??No.No way in hell.Use the door!!!I shouted completely angry trying to shut my window.
"Please give me your hand, am going to fall.please..."she said with pleading eyes.I let her in but she better have a good explanation as to why instead of using the door to get in the house she is using my window.
"Am sorry but Dave is at our drive way and lied to him that am out of town.What the hell is he even doing here and am out of town?"
"Just get out of my room!!"
"Everyone is talking about Riri's cousin,I hear he is every girls type.Is he?"she paused waiting for my answer.But i stared at her blankly gesturing for her to leave my room."Forget it, am going to his party which i know you are too so you better not leave me!"she said completely ignoring the fact that i want her out of my room.
I pushed her out locking my door right after.Damn!the party.I have to start getting ready for it.I still dont know how Riri managed to convince me into going to this party.Seems like the world is not my oyster after all.I decided to pick a simple and more comfortable outfit for the party.I wanted to be invisible.I went to the bathroom and let the hot shower drip all over my body.I stood there for only God how long thinking of nothing and staring blankly at the bathroom wall.I wish i had not agreed going because today all i wanted was lock my self out of the entire universe.I can still change my mind, after all Taylor is tagging along.I shut off the shower,covered my body with a towel and headed for my phone ready to come up with an excuse for Riri as to why i cant join them.
"Ready for some buzz!"just as i was typing i heard Riris voice on the other side of the door.I cursed under my breathe and headed for the door.
"Really bi*ch,"i said throwing my hands on the air."Do i have to come along?Am not even feeling well!"
"Lie...lie...lie.."she said letting herself in."Hurry my cousins' girlfriend is at the living room and we cant keep her waiting now.Can we!"
"Why did you bring her along?"
"Helllooo we need a lift,the last time i checked none of us owns a car"she said heading for my dresser.
"Ooooooo...." is all i could let out."Tee is tagging along"
"Perfectooo..hurry Sel let me check out on Tee."she said throwing her handbag on my bed as she left the room.
I quickly put on the outfit i had selected earlier,i then went to my dresser mirror did a quick make up.Put on my cologne.Glad and satisfied at how i looked i grabbed Riris handbag and left the room.
"Tee you look perfect.I will never come in terms on how you and Sel are related.But that is a secret you should never tell"she said fixing Tees' hair.
"Really?Bestfriend huh!?"I said chuckling.
"NO WAY!!!SEEEEELLL we are going to a party not some grocery shop!"she shrugged heading to my direction.
"Its either this or am not tagging along!"i said hoping they would just live me alone to wallow in my depression.Even though i seriously needed this break i wasn't feeling the energy to a party.
"Don't say i did not ask you to change!"she said giving up and snatching her bag from my hand."In_law this is Sel,Taylor.Sel,Taylor this is Hailey,my cousins girlfriend."she said pointing at us respectively.
"Nice to meet you guys"she said smiling widening her arms for each of us to squeeze in for a hug.We both smiled at her and left for the door.I think i already like her.Once we were outside i let the cold air hit my face as i took a deep breathe.We headed for the car and Hailey started the drive.Tee sat with Hailey at the front while i was stuck up with Riri at the back who wouldn't shut up of how simple i looked.I ignored her all the way untill we reached our destination.
"Riri you better stick to my side the entire night"i said unbuckling my seat belt.
"No sis.Not in that outfit"
"Really.Just great.great.Remind me how we even bestfriends?"
"Suit yourself i asked you to change not to embarrass yourself, that is why i am your bestfriend,"Riri shrugged.
"Guys get out already!"Hailey shouted making me cringe.
The moment i got out of the car, i knew coming was a bad idea.I was already regretting why i came.The entrance alone was all lit up and one could hear noice from the parking lot.I saw alot of guys from my college passby."I should have really won something sexier"i said to myself loud enough for Riri to hear.She looked at me giving me the-TOLD YOU SO-looks.We all headed for the entrance.Its going to be a long night.Probably the longest nights of my life.
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