I was a slave.His hands found the inside of my thigh.I tensed to his touch but my breathe came out as an exhale.He ripped my underwear from my body.I was already wet with excitement. He saw that my rudeness has been nothing more than a protective mask guiding me from the danger of my attraction to him.He din't ask for permission to touch me,he simply took what he wanted and i obliged.Before long the uptight young woman inside me had become fully unround, taking pleasure in the knowledge that i could never exist with another man the way i have with him.My road to several freedom could only be found through my submission.
Should this ropes he used to tie me down suddenly break, i would not have moved.I was enslaved to him and it was neither rope or cuff or belt that kept me there.But my unweavering need to be with him.To feel his breathe against my bare skin.I waited for the pain that i knew would come, not from the flame but from the inevitable wairing of emotions that seem to take hold of every man.I was defenseless.
His breathe was hot against my neck as he ripped away my underware, exposing me to the humid thick air around us.There was something primitive about the way he handled me.No tenderness.My knees weakened to his touch as i grinded against his fingers.This man just hurt me in ways no one has ever yet my body was no longer my own.In an instant i had surrendered everything to him.
"Am sorry, I can't"Justin whispered. "I'm with Hailey"he added.
That is when it dawned on me.Every memory and every pain came flying back and slapped me hard on my face.I pushed him hard enough that it sent him flying down.
"You are so pathetic Justin," i said with hatred written all over my face.
"You and i both Sel.You and I both."he repeated in a low tone heading to his room leaving me standing there.
"WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!"I screamed.Falling down on my knees.I could not believe what just happened.I am in deed pathetic when he comes to Justin.One moment i want him gone from the face of Africa and the next my body is begging for him to touch me.I was still wrapping my head around what just happened when Justin came back finding me in the same spot he had left me in.
"Can we talk?"
I definitely did not hear that right.The audacity Justin has is out of this goddamn world. Oh hell no I was done with this play boy.Who did he think he was.Justin is the president of all narcissists that is for sure.This is a mess i consciously brought upon myself. How could innocently loving someone feel so wrong.I was broken and at this point I was beyond repair.I was hurt.But he still stood there looking me dead in the face waiting for us to talk.At this point I was done talking.What would we talk about anyways when all we could do is come back to the same begginig drawing board.
"Let's talk then,"I was drained and wanted to get this over and done with.
"I love you Liz.I truly...."
"Ooh hell noo..Not today SATAN."I shouted and left.Riri wanted to talk to me about something but at this point nothing in the world can make me stay under the same roof with Justin. This time I wasn't even hurt I was upset.Upset at myself for being stupid.
Illusory love it was.
Thank you so much for reading.
The End.
