How will I know

Strength

~~~~5 days later~~~~
(Aprils pov)
"Jackson your mom is gonna be here in about 10 minutes." I said. He groaned in annoyance. "Sorry, jay. She really wants to see you. I know you blame her for talking Kylie out of chemo, but you need to talk to her. At least pretend to like her, she's your mom." I said while sitting at the edge of his bed. He looked at me. Mark strolled in, throwing me an apple. "Kepner are his charts updated?" He asked. I nodded. "Wilson did them this morning." Mark flipped through the pages. "Has Callie checked on the hip?" He asked. "Not yet, she said she didn't need to for a while." He rolled his eyes. "I'll page her." Mark said. "No, you don't need to. By the way, how is Anna doing? Can I see her charts?" Jackson asked Mark. Mark glanced at me. "Look I can't lie to you anymore. Anna died in the ICU the other day when you were crashing. I've been making fake charts. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't think you could handle it. Sorry buddy." Mark explained and put his hand on Jacksons shoulder. "Did you change her bandages..." He gritted through his teeth with tears in the poor boys eyes. Mark nodded. "When I was working on you I told Lexie to." He said. "Go get her." He held back tears. Mark ran and got Lexie. "Baby what do you need?" she said. "What the hell did you do to Anna..?" He yelled, coughing after. "What? she's not my patient I didn't do anything! Oh my gosh I didn't do anything!! Oh Jackson I'm so-" "get out!" He screamed. "I- im sorry" "just get out." He whispered, as he started losing his voice, since his throat was still sore from taking out the intubation. Lexie let a tear fall from her cheek. "Jackson are you okay?" I asked. He stared at the ceiling. I saw Jacksons mom talking to weber outside the room. "Jay your mom is here" I said. He continued to stare straight at the ceiling. I walked out to his mom. "Mrs Avery. Here are his charts, I thought you might want to see them." I said while handing his charts to her. She smiled. "Thank you." She said, while running into his room. "My baby how are you doing!" She asked. He remained quiet. "Why isn't he responsive? Can he hear me?" His mom asked. "He lost a patient." I replied. "Well you guys almost lost him so he's fine! Let me see the leg." Mrs Avery demanded. "We have to keep the cast on, to prevent infection." Mark said. She gave him an evil glare. "When you feel like talking to me, just page me. You should be sleeping. I'm going to go talk to Richard." She walked outside, and I watched as her and Richard fought, probably about Jackson. I sat down next to him. "April how fast can you get her out of here?" He asked me. I laughed slightly. "Im pretty sure she's sticking around, she's already on the surgery board. She has 2 surgeries scheduled today." I explained. "Damn it." He whispered. "Mark can you get me all of my real patients charts, not the dead ones?" Jackson asked. Mark nodded and went to grab the charts. "You should kiss me." Jackson said. "I'm sorry, what?" I asked. He looked at me. "I'm having the freaking worst day, my patient died, my mom is here, I have a killer headache and your really pretty so you should kiss me."