hey guys!!!
I'm so fucking sorry, I planned to have this out several weeks ago but it didn't go as planned...
enjoy!
(contains angst)
Bad sat in front of his setup, staring at the screen. His mouse hovered over the 'Go Live' button, but did he really want to do that? Go live, in front of thousands of people, who were just going to say things like 'you're ugly' and 'well, Tommy just went live, I'm out'.
Did he really want to face that again?
Keeping the smile in his voice and the spring in his step was one of the challenges of streaming, especially because of what he was known for.
It really is hard being so happy & cheerful when everyone rained down on your parade, and ever since he'd moved in with his boyfriend (guess who), he had to constantly deliver on that.
Sure, being positive and optimistic is great, but when your life is taking a turn, it can be hard to stay this way.
Bad closed all of his tabs and shut down his PC. He started to stand, then sunk back down into his chair.
He curled up into a ball and hugged his knees. The dry riverbeds that had once flooded with tears once again began to flow, and Bad felt sorry, sorry for both himself and for Skeppy, for his friends and his audience, that he wasn't able to do this, wasn't able to keep up his banner of happiness and joy. He wish he could, he wish that he could make all of them happy, he wished-"
"...Bad?"
He closed his eyes and took in a breath. He opened them and turned around to face him.
Skeppy, standing at his 5 feet and 3 inches in height (you're welcome, short Skeppy supremacy) quickly crossed the space in between them and enveloped him in a hug. "Hi, Geppy," Bad said weakly, burying his face into the soft material of the other's hoodie. Saying nothing, Skeppy just let him do just that.
"Are you okay?"
Bad sniffed, rubbing at his eyes. "Yeah..." Another tear rolled down his face. Skeppy gave him a look. "...no..." Bad admitted, letting his demeanor crumple before his eyes. Skeppy sank down besides him and wrapped his arms around the other. After several minutes of sniffling and silence had passed, Skeppy asked, "...you want to tell me what happened?"
Skeppy patiently listened as Bad hiccupped and explained how he had planned to stream that day, but had decided against it because of all of the hate comments he had been receiving. He balled his hands up as Bad told him about how the general hate had gotten to his head, and his face twisted in anger as some of the specifics in some of the hate comments he had received. When Bad had finished, he quickly embraced him and planted a kiss on his forehead. He started up a bubble bath and comforted him by murmuring to him about how he was an amazing person, and other generally positive affirmations.
Later, after the bubble bath, Bad sat down to type out a well thought message for his viewers.
BadBoyHalo
Hey guys, I've been a little down lately, and I'm thinking about going on a break. There's been a lot of stress on my shoulders lately, and I've been thinking about going on a hiatus from streaming for a while. I'll still post on my YouTube channel, but I'm taking a break for now.
Love you guys <3
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Skeppy
Love you too <3
have a lovely day,
much love,
-Ash <33333333333
