famous match up ➴ bws

08

➸ hannah

I pushed Nathan away as I heard a voice.

"Brad! I said let's go!" It was Tris.. and Brad. He was full of shock and sadness. I saw him wipe his tears away and guilt filled in my body.

"Brad!" I tried going after him but the van already left. I don't even know why I was guilty. It's not like we're in a relationship or something... but he was sad. Why was he sad anyway?

I walked back to my front door and asked Nathan to leave.
"Hannah-"

"I said go!" I threw the bouquet of roses back to him as I slammed the door. What's gotten in to him? Why the hell did he kiss me? But why the hell did I let him?

My mind was screwed. I don't like Nathan, well, not in that way. He was like my older brother. He's special but not that special. There was something about Brad though. I don't know whether I like him or not. As weird as it may sound, yes, I don't know how I feel about him. He was always there for me. He made no effort to make me happy. I was just so comfortable around him.

I don't know what to do now. I feel bad. I've never seen Brad cry before even if he had seen me cry a thousand times.

I decided to call one of my other trusted friends. Pia was asleep at his moment and she could be a bitch if you wake her up.

I called Izzy, my other friend from Birmingham. Yes, I know it's about 8 am there but she wakes up pretty early, unlike Pia, who wakes up at 11:30.

After about 4 rings, she answered. She was so active as usual.

"Hey Hannah! How's life?!"

"Not very good at the moment. Wait, no. It feels like shit." I said not caring what reply I'd get. She hates swearing since she's probably 'Ms. Innocent'.

"Why? What's wrong?!" I could hear a piece of annoyment in her voice but other than that, she was full of concern.

"It's a long story. You up for it?" I heard her mumble a 'yes' from the other line.

I began telling her all that's happened since yesterday, when Nate told me he was going to make me fall for him too. I also clearly remember telling him that I didn't want anything like that. I wanted to focus on my studies, that's it. It's hard enough to balance my time between my studies and my job, what more if I have a relationship? From what I learned from my past relationship, it wasn't easy. If I end up getting hurt again, what about the things I have to do? My time for my studies and for my job will be replaced with my 24/7 sobbing.

Aftermy break up with Matthew, I never bothered to have one again, not that I'm planning to have one. My life's okay now. No worries, no commitment. Nathan? He's just my friend. Nothing more, nothing less. I'd like to keep it that way too.

"Hannah? Hellooooooo?" I snapped back to reality. I haven't realized that I was lost in my thoughts.

"Oh, yeah? Sorry, what was that?" She sighed. "I said that you should tell Nathan how you really feel about him.. but before that, talk to Brad. Ask him why he ran off like that with tears. It's impossible to talk to him personally since you mentioned that he's moving to another place for his tour but find a way. You're a smart girl, Hannah and I know that you'll find a way. After all, you are the smartest girl I know plus you know my friends are all smart."

"Aww, thanks Izzy! I'm flattered! But really, thank you. You're the best friend ever!" I smiled even though she can't see it.

"C'mon, I'm just second and I know it but anyways just go and sort things out! After that, call me and tell me how it goes. But in my opinion, Brad likes you! He's just jealous, that's all."