Bleeding Notes

Fear - Sia

My mother's afraid of the subway
It's a living bad dream
I hold her hand as the doors close
And she pales and stifles a scream
Ali's afraid of Ad-libbing
Of improvising at jams
She is not very happy right now
And spends all her money on grams
Ade is afraid of commitment
So Carla dumped him today
She is very disappointed
She was hoping he'd beg her to stay
Ayo he just wants a girlfriend
He's afraid of dying alone
He doesn't go out very much
Sits at home a lot getting stoned

You see fear is only holding us back
Look closely amongst all your peers
There is usually one thing that keeps
Us off track
It is fear, it is fear, it is fear

Ella is worried about her weight
She won't eat in public anymore
She is fucking her ex again
When they've finished
She sleeps on the floor
Nate has a heart of gold
But give it away he will not
His mother abandoned him at ten
It's a pain he has never forgot
Mary's afraid of herself
Her sentences often cut half
She will never give her own opinion
She's afraid that people might laugh
And I am afraid of sharks
I will not swim out past my head
And sometimes I worry
My boyfriend will die
My first love is already dead

You see fear is only holding us back
Look closely amongst all your peers
There is usually one thing that keeps
Us off track
It is fear, It is fear, It is fear

Candy is having a baby
She fears she will be like her mom
Her friends say relax take a
Deep breath
And march to a different drum
Sachas afraid of her Marco
She think's that it's all her fault
But if he did what he does to a
Stranger
He'd be locked up and charged
With assault

You see fear is only holding us back
Look closely amongst all your peers
There is usually one thing that keeps
Us off track
It is fear, It is fear, It is fear

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fear... nothing is more scary than fear. we all have fears and they locks us up. chain us to cages of darkness. we can not escape. we can't get rid of them but can only learn to live with them. but there are some fears that holds us back from living. i ,for instance, can not look people in the eye. i am afraid people will see how bad of a person i am through them because once someone told me that my eyes are like sweet poison. like illusion. they said that my eyes were tricky and that i fooled everyone. i have not looked someone in the eye since then. i am also afraid of being alone. i do not trust myself with myself. when i am left with myself nothing good ever happens, only disasters come to life. that's why my mom always kisses me to let me know she's in the house so i can sleep. i can not even imagine how many different and worse fears people have. some are afraid of talking, some eating in public, some relationships. the world is so scary. and my biggest fear is life.
this song... listening this song i can put myself in the shoes of people mentioned. i can feel the women shaking as she tries to step in to the train. i can see the girl trying to smile and say i'm not hungry because she can not put that fry in her mouth and chew. i can see the girl shaking in fear waiting for the next time be will come home angry and be hit. i can see the boy looking desperately for someone who will love him unconditionally. i can see the pregnant girl fearing to she will turn out just like her mom. this is what a song is supposed to do. make you feel the emotions the writer felt while s/he was writing. and the way she sings... i feel everything in my bones and veins. i love sia so much because she is not someone who is writing songs about serious things to gain attention. no. she herself has experienced things and she writes these songs to let it out. she shares her emotions for us to relate. she is my hero. she is what you call a real artist.