And then I found out how hard it is to really change.
Even hell can get comfy once you've settled in.
I just wanted the lonely inside me to leave.
No matter how fucked you get, there's always hell when you come back down.
The funny thing is all I ever wanted I already had.
There's glimpses of heaven in every day.
In the friends I have, the music I make, the love that I feel.
I just had to start again.
The days are a death-wish
A witch-hunt for an exit
I am powerless...
The fragile, the broken
Sit in circles and stay unspoken
We are powerless...
Because we all walk alone on an empty staircase
Silent halls and nameless faces
I am powerless...
Everybody wants to go to Heaven
But nobody wants to die
I can't fear death, no longer
I've died a thousand times
Why explore the universe
When we don't know ourselves?
There's an emptiness inside our heads
That no one dares to dwell...
Throw me to the flames
Watch me burn!
Set my world ablaze
Watch me burn!
How are we on a scale of one to ten?
Could you tell me what you see?
Do you wanna talk about it?
How does that make you feel?
Have you ever took a blade to your wrists?
Have you been skipping meals?
We're gonna try something new today
How does that make you feel?
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me (burn)
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me (burn)
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me (burn)
In this hospital for souls
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me burn...
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me burn...
Hold me close, don't let go
Watch me burn...
In this hospital for souls
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this the song. this is the song for me. the song that explains everything i felt in there. so many things happened and i couldn't utter a word about it but i didn't have to because this song did. i cried out of happiness when i first heard this song. i couldn't stop the tears. someone understood what i felt. i wasn't alone. i knew it. in that moment i knew i would never be alone again. this is the song that saved me. my saver. i listen it every time i feel like the walls are crushing down on me and it helps me escape the wreckage.
the first part is spoken, not sung. and you can feel every emotion he must have felt during the time he wrote the song in his voice. his hopelessness, sadness, pain. you can sense him. the song may just seem like a normal sad depressing song but it's not. he's telling you what you feel is okay and that you're not alone. he's telling you to open your eyes and look around. he's saying you matter and you're important. he's explaining how he felt the same things. he's giving you comfort. he's yelling to people who seem to not realize that medication and doctors and therapy won't help us alone. he's telling them that what we need is them, their love and support. this song is a gift to me. if you can get the message it hopes to send, i'm sure it is one to you too.
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Bleeding Notes
Short Story"For me, singing sad songs often has a way of healing a situation. It gets the hurt out in the open into the light, out of the darkness." - Reba McEntire
