I'm Just A Kid //Tommy angst + sbi

{Chapter one}

⚠️TW! Self harm, eating disorder, suicide attempt

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[Phil's house]

Tommy was laying on his bed under the covers, staring at the ceiling while being deep in thought, deciding if he wants to tell his family about his eating disorder and self harm. He had been like this since he was 12 and look at him now, the big 14. He had just turned 14 a few days ago, and he doesn't feel like he is good enough anymore.

Not only that, but he stopped streaming for a while due to his mental health taking a toll on him.

He was snapped out of his thoughts when he heard his door open, it was Wilbur. "Hey Tommy, dinners done, come eat when you're ready" Wilbur states. Tommy really didn't want to eat, he felt like if he gained anymore weight, he would get bullied. But that was wrong, Tommy was really skinny for his age and he doesn't realize it.

"Sure, I'll be down in a minute" Tommy replied. Wilbur hummed a response while leaving the door cracked open and then turns around to walk downstairs. Tommy gripped his nose bridge with his fingers and sighed, he pulled the blankets off him and walked out of his room, closing the door and heading toward the stairs.

When he reached the bottom step, he walked into the kitchen and sees Phil, Wilbur, and Techno all sat at the dinner table. He grabbed a paper plate from the counter and started picking up the smallest slice of pizza he could find and placed it on his plate, followed by him sitting down at the table.

"So, Tommy, how was school today?" Phil questioned.

"It was good I guess" Tommy replied, blandly

Tommy takes a few bites of his food and finishes, he picks up the plate and stands up to throw it away. "You haven't been eating much recently, Tommy, you okay?" Wilbur asks, concerned for his younger brother.

"Yeah I'm fine Wil, I ate at school, so I wasn't too hungry" Tommy replied and walked back up the stairs and into his bathroom in which was connected to his room. He closed the door and sighed, he kneeled down to the toilet and pulls up his sleeve, revealing tons of old scars.

He stuck a couple fingers down his throat and threw up all the food he just ate, followed by him flushing the toilet and turning on the sink to wash his hands, then entered his bedroom.

He turned his computer on, he was snapped out of his thoughts from a short vibration caused by his phone.

Tubbo is live!
Hypixel with Ranboo :D

Tommy sighed, and to admit, he hated when Tubbo and Ranboo were playing together when he wasn't invited. Tommy opened discord and joined their call.

"Oh. Hey Tommy" Tubbo mumbled, just loud enough to hear. Ouch.

"Hi Tubbo" Tommy blandly replied.

Tommy started to overthink about why Tubbo was acting like that, did he not want him there? He got so deep into thought that he didn't even realize what was going on.

"Tommy? TOMMY!" Tubbo yelled to get his attention.

     "WHAT?!" Tommy snapped.

"Jeez, chill out" Ranboo chuckled.

        "No, you chill out! Fucking bitch"

"Tommy, what's your problem with Ranboo? Ever since I started hanging out with him, you've been such a bitch toward him! Just chill the fuck out!" Tubbo snapped. "B-but he told me to chill out! W-why do you like him more? W-what did I do?" Tommy stuttered as his vision blurred with tears.

   "Tommy?" Tubbo said, just before Tommy left the call.

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Tommy sighed as he turned off his computer and walked to his bathroom, so many bad memories all in one little room. He looked behind the mirror to find something that is hidden, he pulled out a small metal blade which was taken out of a pencil sharpener.

He pushed the cold blade to his already scarred wrist and sliced it across his vein, with the intention of killing himself.

1 cut

2 cuts

3.

5..

His eyes blur while black spots filled his vision.

10..

He switched the blade to his other hand and made more cuts on his right arm. His arms are covered with blood, it started to drip onto the floor, staining the white tiles.

He passed out on the cold bathroom floor with a thump, and the blade still in his hand.

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Wilbur heard a thump coming from Tommy's room. "Tommy?!" Wilbur yells as he ran into his room.

He ran into the bathroom and saw his little brother lying on the floor in a pool of his own blood.

on the brink of death.

"PHIL, TECHNO! HELP!" Wilbur yelled as Phil and Techno come running up the stairs and into Tommy's bathroom where they heard the yelling come from.

    "Oh my fucking god" Phil said while his eyes started to tear up.

"Techno, go grab gauze and medical tape hurry!" Wilbur said.

Techno nodded and swiftly rushed out of Tommy's room and opened the hallway closet to grab the items. Warm tears began to fall from Wilbur's eyes as he attempted to stop the bleeding until Techno got back.

Techno returned with the supplies. Wilbur cleaned the blood off of Tommy's arms and then wrapped them with gauze and medical tape.

   Wilbur then picked him up, feeling his blood-soaked shirt "Shit, his shirt is soaked. Phil, go grab him another one" Phil nodded and walked out of the bathroom to grab another shirt.

    Wilbur took Tommy's blood-soaked shirt off of his unconscious body, his heart broke when he saw the sight of his body, his ribcage nearly poking out of his skin. He squeezed his eyes shut, blaming himself for not noticing the signs earlier.

    Phil returned with the different shirt and handed it to Wilbur, he was taken aback by the sight of Tommy's body.

   As Wilbur put the shirt on Tommy, he picked him up and carried him to his bed, carefully placing him under the covers. He sighed and the three of them walked out of his bedroom to let him rest.

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(1,030 words)

Hey! Author here, I'm back and I decided that I'm gonna revise all chapters. The storyline will be the same, I'm just gonna fix them up a bit!
Thanks for reading! <3