I'm Just A Kid //Tommy angst + sbi

{Chapter eight}

⚠️TW: Bullying, Self harm, Slight abuse, Blood, F slur, Name calling

{A/N}
    Hey! I'm back with another chapter! Thank you everyone for being patient. I know I wasn't able to write chapters for a while since I've been very busy with school but I will try to write more chapters as much as I can. Thank you for understanding and enjoy the new chapter! :)

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{Tommy's POV}

    I woke up from my alarm clock loudly blaring next to me on my nightstand, signaling for me to get up for school. The numbers on my phone reads '6:00 AM', I pulled the covers off of my body and immediately felt a cool breeze of air brush against me, coming from the open window.

I tiptoe towards the window and peek outside at the raining grey clouds, the dark sky lit up a bright purple every few seconds at a time.

I stepped away from the window and wandered to the closed door of my bedroom and turned the cold, metal knob. I exit my room and shut the door behind me, while grabbing my backpack on the way downstairs and slinging it over my shoulder as I walked down the stairs. Then suddenly I heard Wilbur call my name.

"Hey Tommy, It's raining pretty hard right now. Do you want a ride to school so you don't have to walk in the rain?" Wilbur asked.

"Sure, thanks Wil" I replied. Wilbur hummed a response.

[Time Skip]

{3rd person POV}

Tommy arrived at school and walked through the front doors, going straight to his locker. He unlocked his locker and grabbed the books he needed for his first class.

Tommy slammed his locker door shut and began to wander to his first class. He spotted Tubbo on the opposite side of the hallway, Tommy greeted him, but unfortunately Tubbo didn't hear him, Tommy just ignored it and continued to walk to his class.

{Tommy's POV}

The first few minutes into class went by pretty normally. None of the usual bullying or average name calling. They just seemed to ignore me. 'Why is everyone ignoring me? Am I invisible? What's going on?' I began to overthink. 'Does Tubbo hate me or something?' I thought to myself.

After about 45 minutes, first hour finally ended, and once again I found myself roaming the halls to my second hour. Until I heard a few familiar voices of some boys behind me. I began to panic, oh god it's them.

I found myself slightly sprinting to the nearest bathroom, in attempt to avoid them. "Hey faggot, where do you think you're going?" Xavier teased. 'Fuck. Why does my life have to be like this?' I thought to myself.

    I turned around to look at them, tightly clenching my books in fear, and slight anger. "What do you want?!" I asked with a lump in my throat. My eyes began to water as I prepared for what was about to happen.

   "Aw is the crybaby really about to cry?" John laughed. "Fucking pussy" Xavier teased. I turned back around and continued to speed walk to the nearest empty bathroom, hoping that I lost them.

   I entered the bathroom and locked myself in the last stall. I slid myself down the wall and began to panic even more, my eyes started to water as I opened my phone case, taking the blade out.

   I pulled my sleeve up, revealing dozens of scars, some being months old, while some only being days old. I pushed the cold blade to my wrist and harshly slid it across my pale skin, the thick line dripping crimson blood just a few seconds later. 1 cut.

2 cuts

3..

5..

7 cuts

10... 15...

    30 new cuts were made on my wrist. I don't know what happened.. I couldn't stop. I stood up from sitting against the wall and unlocked the stall door.

   The 3 boys were standing in the doorway of the bathroom, I stood still, frozen in fear as my breathing started to pick up and I began to feel dizzy, forgetting that my bleeding wrist was still visible. "Please.. please just leave me alone.." I shakily mumbled with tears forming in my eyes.

   "Oh he's begging, how cute" Xavier teased and laughed. Jacob walked closer to the door and locked it. 'Shit. What was I going to do? I couldn't even tell any of my teachers or my brothers because the bullying would just get so much worse. I can't take this any longer. I just want everything to stop.' I thought to myself.

    Jacob laughed, "Guys look! This loser was cutting himself again" He mocked and then pointed at my left arm. I noticed and quickly pulled my sleeve back down, the cuts wouldn't stop bleeding.
    They started to bleed through my sleeve but I ignored it for now, there are way bigger things to worry about in this situation.

    The 3 boys laughed and walked closer to me. I began to slowly back up until my back hit the cold wall, I was cornered with no possible way to escape. I was terrified, frozen in fear. I didn't know what they were going to do to me this time, and I didn't want to know either.

    They basically towered over me, they were so much taller than me. At this point I was just thinking about making a run for it, but unfortunately, I left my backpack in the stall.
     "Please.. I really don't want any trouble.. I just need to get to class. Please let me go. I won't tell anyone I swear!" I pleaded.

    In a swift movement I had gotten pinned to the wall by two of the taller boys, John and Jacob, the back of my head pounded hard against the wall with a thud and my ears started to ring loudly.
    I began to scream for help but instead, my screams were silenced by Xavier's covering my mouth. "Shut the fuck up!" he demanded.

   Suddenly, I felt a sharp pain in my stomach, I had gotten punched. Punches after punches, he continued.
    I felt a harsh punch to the face, and another. My nose started to bleed, I took another punch to the face and suddenly, everything went dark.

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{1,132 words}

[A/N]
    Wow, that was a pretty long chapter. Thank you for reading this far into the story! I know I had discontinued this story for a while but I'm finally back and making more content! Even if I don't post more chapters, I will post content for everyone. Once again, thanks for reading and more chapters will be out soon.

    P.S, make sure to eat, even if it's just a bit, and drink some water because I care about you :) and you are loved, don't forget that <3