Who am I?

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-Lily's POV-

The ceramic floor once cold became hot under us, and my tears dried as he is humming his little song in my ear to calm me down, I try to recognize the tune because it seems familiar but I'm way too emotional right now to figure it out. I feel so comfortable in his embrace and relieved that we just had this conversation and how open he was with his feelings despite how hard it seemed to have been. I don't want to get up and I indicate to lay down a little bit more so that my whole body can be relaxed, so he does. we interlace with each other and keep rubbing each other until we began kissing again, this time I just can't stop, it's getting hot and I can't stop caressing him until we hear keys at the door and then steps coming towards us, we got up so fast you could call us the Flash. I feel like a teenager again, like we need to hide that we do that sort of thing but then again it is on the kitchen floor, we might be judged for it but it feels amazing. 

Nori appears out of the corner leading from the living room, she approaches us and says nothing for a while, analyzing our postures. We're just standing looking at her as well, analyzing hers.

" Woaw! Yall look like you just had a day!" She finally says.

" Hum!..." Karl chuckles nervously. " What are you doing here so early? If I recall you're usually at Jerry's when your shift hasn't started yet." He asks politely with an awkward smile, avoiding her eyes and looking at me. 

" I forgot something important." She winks and immediately runs out, we hear her footstep going upstairs, my room is the only one downstairs yet it receives the most sun and moonlight, makes me wish I was in an attic, would match my witch vibes better.

Not 2 seconds passed and she was already out of the room, and heading for the door, she locks it and we hear her car starting from the kitchen, I find it ironic for someone who wasn't vouching for Karl, she seems to be pretty comfortable leaving me alone with him in the house to go be with her little boyfriend leaving me with mine, I'll have to say that I'm somewhat grateful about it. It reminded me of their awkward interaction at the tattoo parlor, if I didn't know where she was that day I would think they both were hiding something from me and I know it's probably not okay to think but even after all he's done I still trust him more than my own family and that hurts me. 

I turn towards him. " You want to head to the chimney?" I ask finally

"Yeah, let me grab some snacks." As I step out to head there, I see him putting the vegetables we cut in the fridge. 

When he stopped coming to the house, I thought I would never come in front of this chimney, but besides my room, it's the only place I can find myself to be, I slept there a lot since our separation,  even more than in my room. I missed him and I dreamed of him a lot, now that he's here I don't know how to act, I shouldn't be inviting him to a place that became my sanctuary so soon anyways even though we were just kissing and being . I feel like I'm being a hypocrite