my little nymphet diary & teacher crush ♡

10 | welcome back to me!

Privet my dears!
I apologise, I haven't updated in so so long! The summer happened and I didn't see my dear Feix for so long, plus I was unmotivated to write before the summer.

Anyway, I have been back at the school with Felix still teaching me for 3 weeks now, this is the 4th week.

We had a small argument 2 weeks ago and it honestly broke my heart. I could feel his disappointment and anger and it was so ridiculous because he made such a big thing out of something so small and honestly, I spent all of that night crying.
Anyway, I apologised even though we had argued over something that wasn't my fault. I realised given the subject of the argument (which I won't go into) it was good to be the bigger person and apologise to him as my senior.

we've moved onto that now and things are genuinely great between us now, I think we're getting a closer platonic relationship.
Yesterday was a pretty exciting day. I was finished with the task he set and looked up at him as I normally do and he was actually looking at me. He smiled and I smiled, then I dropped my pen and started giggling and he chuckled. This makes me think he knows, maybe that's not such a bad thing. After this little interaction he walks over to my desk and sits in front and basically says he'll get me an award from the school if I agree to help a student who is falling behind and doesn't try in our class. Obviously I agreed and he asked me to stay behind at the end to organise this.
I swear, I became a mess after this. It felt so nice to know he trusted me and recognised my hard work enough to do this task. I was blushing and heavy breathing with nerves/excitement this whole rest of the lecture.
He was then talking to the girl I would be helping about this agreement and I felt a few people's eyes on me, I was like "okay damn Lixie tell them I'm ur favourite" (this is half a joke ig)
One of them was my best friend and obviously she knows about my liking for Felix so it was so hard to stop us from laughing across the room.
Another one of these girls was a girl we'll name Alina. I can't remember whether or not I've mentioned Alina but here we go.
Alina is another girl that so clearly has a crush on Felix and hates me. She doesn't know I do also though. She has made horrible comments in the past towards me, my nationality and my interests and I genuinely hate her. What has upset me before is her and Felix had a joke one time, but thankfully I've never seen it grow into a relationship like ours and I need to accept Felix will have relationships with students aside from myself, it just makes me hurt and jealous, especially considering he has a postcard from Alina in his office but you didn't here that from me. Besides, they're getting less close. In fact, Alina told my aforementioned best friend she is pissed at Felix for not noticing her hard work. Miss girl, we all know why you work so hard.
It felt good when Alina looked at me, you could tell she was jealous. And I like her to realise I'm close with Felix.

Anyway, when he kept me and the student I would be helping behind at the end he wouldn't stop saying thank you and was forever explaining how good it was I would be doing that. I felt so happy.

I was glad Felix and I had our little interaction that lesson, it just made me so happy and like he valued me, even though it means I have to do extra work. Especially because he had marked one girls work early and was explaining to her at the start of the lesson how good it was, but I had handed in my work with the rest of our group that day and I'm so excited to receive my feedback because I know it will be good, I'm good at Felix's subject and I worked hard on that essay.

Anyway, Lyubit. I know I will try to update more regularly now. Especially as mine and Felix's relationship grows stronger, platonically of course as he's unfortunately still married lmao.

All the love in the world,
Anni-Frida <3