Gypsy man

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We arranged to spend the night at Lulian's 'place'. I don't know how to tell mom that it's a caravan.

Tomorrow we'll be leaving the city completely. Lulian temporarily caged the cimora in his domain.

We take the train to the station in the woods, of course. Mom is clearly worried at this point. "Didn't we miss the stop?" I look at the ground. Lulian is looking out the window. "No." He mumbles. "Mrs.Hawkins, I warn you, this is only a temporary home, my real home is back in Romania."

"Where are we going?" My mom is really anxious.

"I am a gypsy, Mrs.Hawkins." Lulian looks back at her. Her whole body perks up, intrigued. "Caravan?"

"yes."

"Oh I've always wanted to see a real life gypsy caravan." There's a sparkle in my mother's eyes that I've never seen before.

"Well it's a bit messy but that's his fault." Lulian bumps against me. By his voice I can tell he's only joking, I'm not in the mood. He and mom laugh together.

"You have seen the state of his room." My mom. Typical.

"Alex?" I become aware of Lulian's hand on my leg. I look up at him. "What?"

"Are you okay? You seam a bit lost. Deznădăjduit." I have no idea what that word means, probably Romanian.

"Please don't use words I don't understand. It makes me feel stupid." I turn away from him.

"I'm sorry." He takes my hand. "I didn't mean-"

I drop his hand. "Alex."

"Lulian, I think we need to leave him for a bit." My mother talks calmly with him. "He is a teenager after all."

When the train stops at our stop I walk ahead. I know the way by now.

At the caravan I cuddle with Artemis. She lays on the ground I lean against her stomach. Between her front and back legs.

Lulian gives up his bed to my mom. She hesitantly agrees. Lulian makes a fire outside. I watch him from my safe haven.

A memory of us cuddling and laughing by the fire plays in my head. Things were simpler then. I was a virgin. No one knew about us. Did I give him consent that night? I guess I did. At first I didn't want to but then I wanted to.

Did he rape me? "What are you thinking?" Lulian sits down next to me. "I'm wondering if you raped me."

His facial features twist. "Rape?" He chokes out.

"I didn't exactly give you consent the first time." I say to Artemis' tummy.

"You should have said something back then. I would've stopped if you asked me to." He pulls my body into his arms.

"I was scared." I was terrified. "You're a lot stronger than me, Lulian."

"If you ever feel like I'm forcing you to do something, please tell me." He tilts my head to look at him. "If I do anything you disapprove of or dislike, tell me."

I can't help it, I kiss him. Only briefly. A slight brush of the lips. Then I kiss him again. Harder than before.

The next thing I know I'm sitting on his lap straddling him. His hands are on my thighs, slowly moving higher.

My hands are on his neck. They slip down to his chest. I unbutton his shirt. He undoes my jeans.

"Nope. You're not doing that." Shit mom's still here. I button up Lulian's shirt while he redoes my jeans.

Reluctantly I climb off him. "Hey, mom." I muster a smile. "Have you finished your resignation?" She nods. "I wanted to tell you that I am going to sleep now. Please don't have sex."she warns.

"Yes mom." "Yes Mrs.Hawkins." Lulian and I say simultaneously.

"Alex when you're ready for bed you may join me." She walks away. "Oh and Lulian you can join too. It's your bed anyhow."

We actually do fit. The three of us on the bed. My mom against the window, me in the middle and Lulian spooning with me.

"Is it safe for me to assume that you lost your virginity in this bed, Alex?" My mom asks, her voice doesn't sound too happy. Lulian tenses up behind me.

"Yes mom." I mumble.

"Well, I wish I lost my virginity in such a wonderful place." She signs.