Gypsy man

What virginity?

Heart steady. Breath calm. I hear a horse for some reason.

I look around me. Unfamiliar bed. Small space. Lulian's caravan. Now I remember.

I'm still naked. Where's my phone? My clothes are neatly folded on a small table next to the bed. I reach for my phone.

7 missed calls from mom.

Oh shit. She calls again. I have to answer. "Uh, hi mom." I say nervously.
"Oh thank goodness. I was so worried." Shit. "I'm so sorry mom. I didn't mean to worry you." "No Alex. I get it. You don't want to be near your father. It's okay. You may stay there as long as you'd like." Wait... WHAT!? "Are you sure, mom." "Yes, Alex . Stay." She hangs up. What now?

Lulian walks in without his shirt. Abs. Are those natural!?

An eagle rests on his chest. It's wings stretch to his shoulders. There's a butterfly over his bellybutton and a snake surrounding it. "What?" He smirks.

He turns around and reaches for some cloth on a shelf. A huge mandala covers his back. I see smaller tattoos on his arms. He is very very attractive. And he knows it.

He brings the cloth to me. His arms lift the cloth closer to my body. The movement makes his biceps bulge.

I'm not looking at his face. He's flexing on purpose. I know I'm blushing.

He wordlessly wrap the cloth other my bruises.

I don't like it. My mom never touch me like that. Mom nurses me in a motherly way. Lulian nurses me in a sexual way.

"How long are you staying?" His hand is on my face, his thumb brushes over my lips.

"Do you want me to go." I reluctantly ask.

"No." He laughs. "I want you to stay here with me." His hand slips to my chest.

Is THAT what he wants? Does he want sex? I don't think I'm ready to lose my virginity. Yet I say. "I'll stay forever."

And with that he kisses me. His LIPS are on my LIPS. Only briefly.

"I'd like that." He steps away from me. "Get dressed, Alex." He throws my clothes at me. I do as I'm told.

He gets a shirt for himself. The shirt shows off his chest.

Why is it so distracting?

I leave my hoodie on the shelf. He takes me outside.

His mare greets me by pushing her nose into my chest. I pet her face.

"Her name's Artemis. Goddess of the hunt." He strokes her back.

"My stallion's name is Apollo. Their foal is persephone. She's two years old."

"Still a baby." I say more to Artemis that to Lulian. He sighs and mutters under his breath. "Still a kid, like you." My hands freeze. I tend to forget that he's so much older than me.

"I'm sorry." He looks at me. Storm clouds gather in his eyes. "You have nothing to be sorry about. Alex you are the age you are and I am the age I am."

He walks over and take my hands. I look up at him. Fuck he's tall. And I'm not the shortest guy around. "In a few years our age difference will mean nothing."

He kisses the top of my messy hair. I melt into him and he holds onto me.

Am I gay?

"Now, are you ready to get on her back?" He smiles warmly at me.
"Wait, what?"

Lulian pulls me to Artemis' side.

His hands cup my waist between them.
"I will lift you up, when you're crotch is level with her back, swing your right leg to the other side of her back."
Somehow I end up on the horse's back.

"There you go." Lulian pats my thigh.
And that is how I learned how to ride a horse. Bareback and bridle less.

Later that night we sit together by the campfire.

"What do you want to do now,Alex?" He asks my hair.

His index finger traces a line up and down my arm.

"I don't know." I mutter to his chest.

"No... ideas." He asks. "No..." I answer. He drops his hand.

"I have an idea." I look up at him. "What's your big idea, Lulian."

He answers me with a kiss. I don't know how to kiss like this but I'm learning quickly.

Somehow I end up on my back in the dirt. Lulian's on top of me. His hips between my legs. I don't know what's going on, but we end up in his bed. Our clothes end up on the floor.

Lulian stop. Part of me wants to scream.

Some other part of me wants to scream with pleasure. I don't stop him.

His hands are on my body. Mine are on his back. Pulling him into me.

His lips are on my neck. He bites my chest.

It hurts, but I like the pain. I'm definitely gay.